First some background... I really cannot tolerate anybody in my personal space, in Feb while on holiday, I decided to go for my first indian head massage... I had a panic attack and it was a disaster. My therapist suggested that I find somebody I trust to do some body work with... so I did.
I investigated different techniques and ideologies and became quite interested in Tantric thinking. I made contact with a Tantra teacher, explained my position and had my first session this morning...
She was younger than I expected and for some reason I thought she would be really overweight...which she wasn't. She was your typical calm, spiritual type... talked really slowly and deliberately...
We sat down on the floor across from each other and started chatting...What followed was the most unbearably awkward 30 minutes of my life...
We did a bit of breathing and prepared to greet our Yoni's... (the sanskrit word for vagina). At this point, I was ready to rip the door off its hinges and get the hell out of there... and my Yoni was so with me on this one!!! We were to clench our PC muscle to draw energy to that area and do the greeting... I got a little freaked out when she was doing that breathing/moaning thing... clearly my Yoni was was not that excited to see me.
She was actually conversing with her vagina...hello yoni...hello yoni. I thought she was an absolute fruit cake and struggled to maintain my poker face.
This was followed by a Tantric greeting... this is when things started to change for me. I had relaxed by now and recovered from the previous exercise. She traced the outline of my body with her hands 7 times, it was the most incredible feeling... from the top of my head down my arms and thighs...ever so gently...the lightest touch you could ever imagine. It felt wonderful... I had this rush of emotion, I felt like I wanted to cry...I felt this incredible warmth... it was amazingly peaceful.
I didn't want it to end...
Soo... what next? I need to decide whether I am booking another appointment... the next one will be 2 hours long... I really did enjoy the last part of our appointment, but I don't think I could actually survive another Yoni greeting with a straight face.
Will think about it some more before I decide...
