All day i dream about suicide.
The other morning at 5am i was doing my hair for work. A random thought of dying came into my head. This happens a lot. Often im driving and ill think about driving into a tree, or off a bridge or into a pole.
Often ill think about perhaps hanging myself, overdosing or slitting my wrists. I imagine it in my head, evey last detail. What im doing, what im thinking when im doing it and how i feel. Most of the time I imagine feeling relieved in my last moments of life. Sometimes i feel regret.
These thoughts just pop into my head out of the blue and it has been happening since i was about 15. Sometimes ill get these thoughts quite frequently and then sometimes less frequent.
Is this normal? Am i normal? I dont know.
