I think that alot of people are jealous of those of us that don't have physically visable disabilities.  I can't stand when they talk a bunch of stuff like "Get a job!" or talk about us sitting on our asses.  I'm a schizophrenic.  Apparently the fact that I am supposedly paranoid and shit doesn't make a difference.  Oh yeah, I'm real good with the general public when I feel as though they are bothering me.  I still think that they have been bothering me.  I feel like I am walking between the two planes of existence.  I know that people are bothering me.  It's as though they take turns harassing me.  Apparently I'm a big joke.  I'm not going to stand for that.  Every time that my doctors and therapists try to help me get better, it seems like people that come through the trailer park want to drag my self esteem through the mud.  Do all schizophrenics and nerds have to tolerate this kind of shit?  I'm being sort of passive because I'm not responding to their shit.  All I do is blog about it.  Where would all of those people come from, and why the fuck would they want to get on my nerves?  All I do is try to take each day one step at a time.  I try to survive.  It's not easy when you hear voices, feel like people are out to get you (not everyone), and deal with a bunch of psychic attacks almost every day.  I wonder if it's time to utilize my "religious" knowledge, call upon a deity or two, and send that shit back to where it originally came.  I have done reversing spells before.  I know that they work because I've seen them do so.  Perhaps it is time to get ritualistic. I just gotta figure out who I'm calling if I'm calling by specific name this time.  I wonder if the people around here that are fucking with me are schizophrenics themselves, but living in denial of their uncontrolled mind.  It seems that the old hag that doesn't like to shower might be behind all of this shit.  Anything is possible.  I guess that's why she's been having so much bad luck after what she put me through when I lived with her.  Should I really feel bad for her?  She had opportunities to have people move in and stay there with her. She just started fucking with them because they drank.  Oh well.  What comes around goes around.