I know that I should be grateful that my MIL wants to spend time with my son and that she loves him dearly. Believe me when I say that I am grateful. But.....isn't there always a but somewhere? But, I do have problems with her when she is around him. She forgets that he isn't her son. There are times it feels like such a competition between us when it comes to him. If we go walking together, she will gently push me away from the stroller. If I try to talk to him, she will talk over me. Sometimes I feel like she would rather I was totally out of the picture. I have talked with my DH about it and he has talked to her and asked her to back down. But it doesn't change anything, I still feel that I have to compete for my son.
I get so angry that I can't see straight. To try and keep these feelings at bay, I have stopped going to "family" get togethers. I figure if I stay home, I don't have to deal with her over riding me and it keeps the peace. But it doesn't help, because the few time we are all together, she is right there taking over. My son, being all of 2 has no clue what is going on and that is as it should be. But everyone else sees it which makes it interesting.
I hate to say this, but there are times I feel that my son prefers her more. After all, she does all the fun things, gets all the fun things, and lets him do all the fun things. Jealous? Yes, I can admit that. Right now, I'm waiting for them to come back from the store. Original plans were that she was suppose to come and visit with us. She doesn't, she plays with him....which is fine. Then they decided to take a walk. My DH was suppose to go down and meet them to bring up my son, but of course my son doesn't want to come home. So they went on to the store.
Why does this bother me? Why can't I just sit back and let it be? Simple, because he is my son and there is a line that shouldn't be crossed and she crosses it everytime. I hate being with her, because he doesn't listen to me at all. Why should he when she lets him do what ever he wants?
I guess I'm done bitching, complaining, ranting, and feeling sorry for myself.....
