I am a man who has not felt happy for many years of my life without an opiate in my system...my boyfriend assures me that it is abnormal to be physically dependent on any drug. So fucking shoot me, am I so evil and fucked up to be like this? Fuck I've got a Lexapro addiction and a Suboxone addiction, I know deep within myself that I'll always be opiate dependent, and I accept that...my man can't handle this one iota and to add to the drama, he recently gave me an ultimatum...go to rehab for my out of control problem (I mean what the fuck?). I don't use illegals except a little smoke and an occasional, and I mean occasional Valium, due to a prior addiction many years ago....It's just damn hard to get off of these prescription medications when one has been on them for a decade. He's never used a drug besides alcohol and cigarettes and I'm proud of him so much for that. All in all, in the two years we've been together, self esteem wise mostly what I feel now is that I am this person who has uncontrollable addiction issues and I need to come off them NOW!
I'm going to bed. Thanx a lot tho if you actually read this! I'll be sure to read yours if you comment.
thegayfuckup posted on Sep 17, 2008
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evil_twin said on Sep 17, 2008....
Lexapro isn't an opiate so I don't think you're actually addicted to that. Your body becomes dependent on it, but you don't get high off of it. It's an antidepressant, and if you need it, then no one should give you shit for having to take it. And Suboxone is what they give you to treat opiate addiction. So if you're taking that, then aren't you already doing something to get off the other RX drugs?
-evil_twin LA
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thegayfuckup said on Sep 17, 2008....
Thanx for reading and yeah and I did forget to clarify that Lex isn't an opiate BUT the physical withdrawal from that drug is horrid so I consider myself physically and psychologically dependent on it. According to my man, being on Suboxone isn't doing 'enough'. -
evil_twin said on Sep 17, 2008....
You're definitely right about the Lexapro withdrawals. I've been there and done that. It's worse than heroin or something. I've also withdrawn from Vicodin too. Not fun. I don't think anyone who hasn't gone through that, can understand really. At least you attempted to get clean by starting the Suboxone. I'm sorry he doesn't understand. It's tough going through all that, especially without support.
-evil_twin LA
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thegayfuckup said on Sep 17, 2008....
Yes I can imagine the Vicodin withdrawal to be very bad as I've been through opiate withdrawal so many times in the past (from being broke!) like when I was doing 2000mg+ codeine a day; it took a long time to get to taking that amount which is lethal to the opiate naive person, then the oxycodone withdrawal which was identical. The length and severity of opiate withdrawal differs between opiates but they ALL have one thing in common, they cause a very unpleasant withdrawal! I'm so glad I haven't felt strong withdrawal in over 2 years, I fear it so bad. -
tonibell said on Sep 23, 2008....
lexapro? I've been taking it for a few years and tried to get off it. I understand you have to take prozac while your trying to get off it. I'm not sure it's the right thing for a senior, but I'm already on that train. -
starchini said on Sep 30, 2008....
hmm...my dad is a forty something business owner and lexapro saved his sanity. He is doing great, not depressed, can focus on work. Its a miracle drug for the clinically depressed...I dont know why ud want to get off of it, if it helps offcourse. As far as the other drug, i dont know anything about, i imagine its another antidepressant. Maybe go into a Dr. and get re assesed. Maybe they will prescribe different drugs sense these obviously arnt working. and there is nothing wrong with pot. So dont feel guilty bout that one. Unless ur dependent on it. Happy is all in the head i think. If u wanna be happy u can, its an attitude adjustment. This goes for people who arnt clinically depressed...I dont know much of your story...but it seems like a good one so ill continue to read : ) Good luck! -
butter1970 said on Oct 12, 2008....
I was hit by a car and used opiates to kill the pain. It quickly led to other drugs and my life spiraled out of control. Im now in school to become an addictions councelor .Im one of the lucky ones who made it through . Many of my friends are now dead or in prison. Im not saying you will go down this path but any addiction should be at least looked at by a profesional.Good luck and god bless -
peanut_WI79 said on Nov 08, 2008....
You are not a fuck up...:) Well maybe...but your good at it! Lol! smile! you have to be good at something!
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