i was sick yesterday... so sick that i barf at work! i guess i was having some side effects with the new pills that the doctor prescribed to me... i called her about it and she said that head aches were the side effect of this medicine and not vomitting... anyway she told me that i could go back on wednesday. but the problem is i have work so satruday it is...
anyway, good thing that our family friend who is staying at our house today is a nurse. she said i got sick becuase of the sudden temperature change. i'm okay now... i had some few head aches but its tolerable... and i took some medicine so i feel better... and i read somewhere that i could take the pills during nightime where my body is not use to it yet... so i'm gonna do that later...
so today, i had those those negative moments once again...
you know where i rant and be negative again...
i was actually thinking of quitting work...
after all what's the use?
i wasn't learning much about the training... it bored the hell out of me.
i was not making this as my career goal right?
so what's the use of continuing it?!?!?!?! i wanted to be a pastry chef... not this...
so after the shift i talked to my trainor about this...
ive been blogging about my new trainor... at first i dont like her cuz she was kinda like a bitch...
she was very strict and i dont like her...
but after talking to her my percepetion of her changed...
i told her i was in the part of my life where i'm still lost... i dont know what to do... and if i fail this training it's not because she was a bad trainor... she was good actually... but because i was a bad student...
she told me that it's because i was too negative... she notices in our class that i was always negative... she knows that i have potential to be great.. (her own words) but the only thing that's keeping me back is me... she said she can't help me if i wont let her...
ouch...
that was hard to swallow.. i mean what would you react if soemone told you you were too negative???
but it was the truth...
i never smiled at work... well sometimes i do... but i'm always so negative.. i always use the words "i can't do this"...
and i was actually touched that she notices it...
she gave me some good advice that i should be more positive in work and in life... she said that her job today was not her dream job but she made the best of it... i was impressed that in a year she became a trainor. she said i should change my outlook and be positive...
and she's right....
i know i could do this... i should be positive!
if i want to be a pastry chef it should be my goal to be the best in this job.. after all it was for my tuition money... ;-)
it's funny cuz my first impression of her changed... she's actually a very nice person...i like her now...
so today soulcasters i decided to be more positive...
in life and in my blogs...
after all a queen is never pretty when she's frowning... ;-)
keep on blogging!!!
p.s.
if you want an instant smile just look at this pic!!! this is me, my cousin and my little sister... i miss my little cousin... he's in the u.s. now...




