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i was sick yesterday... so sick that i barf at work! i guess i was having some side effects with the new pills that the doctor prescribed to me... i called her about it and she said that head aches were the side effect of this medicine and not vomitting... anyway she told me that i could go back on wednesday. but the problem is i have work so satruday it is...
 
anyway, good thing that our family friend who is staying at our house today is a nurse. she said i got sick becuase of the sudden temperature change. i'm okay now... i had some few head aches but its tolerable... and i took some medicine so i feel better... and i read somewhere that i could take the pills during nightime where my body is not use to it yet... so i'm gonna do that later...
 
so today, i had those those negative moments once again...
 
you know where i rant and be negative again...
 
i was actually thinking of quitting work...
 
after all what's the use?
 
i wasn't learning much about the training... it bored the hell out of me.
 
i was not making this as my career goal right?
 
so what's the use of continuing it?!?!?!?! i wanted to be a pastry chef... not this...
 
so after the shift i talked to my trainor about this...
 
ive been blogging about my new trainor... at first i dont like her cuz she was kinda like a bitch...
 
she was very strict and i dont like her...
 
but after talking to her my percepetion of her changed...
 
i told her i was in the part of my life where i'm still lost... i dont know what to do... and if i fail this training it's not because she was a bad trainor... she was good actually... but because i was a bad student...
 
she told me that it's because i was too negative... she notices in our class that i was always negative... she knows that i have potential to be great.. (her own words) but the only thing that's keeping me back is me... she said she can't help me if i wont let her...
 
ouch...
 
that was hard to swallow.. i mean what would you react if soemone told you you were too negative???
 
but it was the truth...
 
i never smiled at work... well sometimes i do... but i'm always so negative.. i always use the words "i can't do this"...
 
and i was actually touched that she notices it...
 
she gave me some good advice that i should be more positive in work and in life... she said that her job today was not her dream job but she made the best of it... i was impressed that in a year she became a trainor. she said i should change my outlook and be positive...
 
and she's right....
 
i know i could do this... i should be positive!
 
if i want to be a pastry chef it should be my goal to be the best in this job.. after all it was for my tuition money... ;-)
 
it's funny cuz my first impression of her changed... she's actually a very nice person...i like her now...
 
so today soulcasters i decided to be more positive...
 
in life and in my blogs...
 
after all a queen is never pretty when she's frowning... ;-)
 
 
keep on blogging!!!
 
 
 
 
 
p.s.
 
if you want an instant smile just look at this pic!!! this is me, my cousin and my little sister... i miss my little cousin... he's in the u.s. now...
 
 
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  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 16, 2008....

    :))))))))))))))

    you go, gurrrl!

    ate papel <3
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 16, 2008....
    thanks ate papel!!!! ;-)
  • secretlife said on Sep 16, 2008....
    queenie:
    when my oldest daughter was in the 8th grade, 5 years ago, she came home from school complaining that her math teacher was the meanest witch she ever met.  she hated her and had nothing nothing nothing nice to say about her.
     
    i told her, as i have often had to tell my children, that she was "stuck" in the math class.  that is wasn't fair to judge someone you just met based on one short class.  besides, you don't have to like everyone in life.  you really don't.  i mean who likes everyone? but you do have to figure out how to work with others, how to be a student ina class and learn from a teacher...
     
    anyway, long story short, after the 3rd week or so, my daughter started to like the math teacher who was the biggest witch ever.  And by the end of the year, she had become her most favorite teacher EVER.  She remains so to this day.
     
    You can't always go by first impressions.
     
    Sometimes you just have to give a person a chance. 
  • travelr712 said on Sep 16, 2008....
    of course, as you already know qpdoll, your trainer is right. you see, you can do it, you can learn it, you just don't want to. and that is the root of your problem. that is what is coloring your attitude. the fact that you think in this case that what you want is more important than what you need to do. it's a very difficult thing to learn, some people never do. but if you can separate out that want, that 'nagging feeling' of wanting rather to be a pastry chef, then your training and your job will get easier. but if you don't, then even when you do get into pastry school, that attitude will follow you, and you'll fail as a pastry chef, because you'll say 'i can't do it'. see what i mean? make a success of this, and then making a success of that will be a piece of cake :-P
  • tonibell said on Sep 16, 2008....
    Queen, I think your really doing something great for yourself! Wow, you told your teacher the truth, you took resposabillity for your attitude, and you can invision how your attitude might change things!
    Many people go a life time without making that kind of progress.
    If we walk this earth filled with energy, it might as well be positive energy.
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 16, 2008....

    secret: i learn that too... funny cuz i always tought she was mean but she was there to listn to my problems...;-) anyway i'm glad youre daughter learned it too!!! first impression is never true!!!

    trav: so true about that!!! i'm gonna get rid f that bad atitude and be positive!!! ;-)

    tonibell: so right!!! hey nice to see you blogging again!!! ;-)

  • skald said on Sep 16, 2008....
    oh my god Queenie what a picture.lol  Remember you get money for the job and since you don't like it maybe you can look for some other on the side. 
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 17, 2008....
    skald: yeah i'm still looking for another side job where i could earn money... i'm glad you like the pic!!!! ;-)
  • harriedpsychmajor said on Sep 18, 2008....
    First impressions are rarely an image of someone's personality. When two people are meeting each other for the first time, they are not their true selves. It takes a few more conversations to give an accurate assessment of a person.

    And I absolutely love the picture! I hope you're feeling better; take care, get well, and keep your head up!
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 19, 2008....
    harried" hello harried!!! glad youre blogging again!!! and i'm okay now... i dont vomit anymore... ;-)

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