keepsakes are a funny thing.
cinema tickets from your first dat, framed photos given as a present, a note written on the back of a piece of paper.
it doesnt seem to matter how long ago they were from, or who they were from, and how i now feel about that person, its still hard to say goodbye...
as you've probably guessed im talking in particular about boyfriend keepsake's! (shock- phie talking about boys???)
but its a general thing too. im cleaning out my room, tidying and packing in time for uni in 12 days, and i keep finding random stuff, letters from friends, really old photos in key rings of family members etc, and most of it im keeping, but i have no idea why? they are just part of my childhood.
then i found the wrist band i had to put on from my first date with the guy i dated for 17months, the one i cant stand now- who i think should be given a name- Cpunk. well to be honest i looked at it for a while smiled at how much id changed and threw it away. i then cleared my desk a bit more then found a photoframe laid down, i picked it up, turned it over and looked at the photo. it was the birthday present Cpunk gave me for my 17th. i cant decide what to do with it. i dont want the phot particuarly, but can i throw away the photo and use the frame???
despite everything, and the way i feel about Cpunk now, he really did go all out for my birthday. its probably my fondest memory, i guess if i get rid of it it will be the final good thing from the relationship to go.
Im not sure i want to admit that 18 months of my life are now meaningless, even though they are in a way.
the photo makes me feel weird. i cant keep it. at first i look at it and shiver thinking about having Cpunk near me- not a good shiver, a bad shiver, but i just dont know what to do with it...
Any ideas?
