I've been doing allot of soul searching lately. Being more honest with myself about what I really want my life to be. I was standing by my other laptop a bit ago, looking at the spacehogs cd case sitting on the shelf, and i suddenly realized that my apartment is exactly the way I want it. I love my little apartment, it's not too big, not too small, and it's comfortable, it's home to me.
I have a nice car too. Nothing fancy, and I payed more for it than it's worth, due to my piss poor credit rating, but it looks nice, and it's only 4 years old, and runs really well when the anti-theft system isn't screwing up.
I have my dream job, and they just gave me a company computer thursday, so I'll be able to keep this job at the very least till i'm done with school 18 months from now. The pay is pretty good, enough for me to build up some reserves, replace the crap stuff i've been living with for so many years, and go out and have some fun once in awhile. And i get to play on computers doing programming all day, and they pay me for it! Really! I can't believe it either! I have 2 computers on my desk, and each one has 2 flat screen monitors. I have 4 monitors wrapped around my chair! I look like I'm working at NASA!
I really like the way my life is going now. But there's one more thing that I'd like to have. You see, I have determined that I'm really not looking for 'mrs right' now. I don't want to have a deep meaningful soulmate relationship. I've just been burned too many times by love, and I really don't want to change my life, my home, my whatever, for someone else now that I've got it just where I want it. But what I would like to have is someone who wants to come over for dinner and stay for breakfast a couple nights a week. Someone who doesn't want to get all emotionally attached, but wants passion and closeness and intimacy. Is that making any sense?
I wonder where you find women like that?
