We had a row last night. All because he said he'll wait for my call, so he can pick me up. There was a storm, and the rain's pouring like mad. It's a long way from home, and getting a ride is hellish, with all the downpour and the wind. I am dripping wet, and the wind just ruined my umbrella, as i desperately tried to dial from my mobile. One ring, two ring...hell, should been hundreds, and he's not picking his phone. Braving the rain and the dark night, it took me hours to get home, to find him cozily sitting in bed, nevermind that i kept on ringing his damn mobile looking for his promise SOS.

Geez, where was this guy when God showered humankind with compassion?Compassion for other people. Not exactly other...hell, i am his wife, dammit! I'm out there in the storm and he doesn't even care whether i get home or not. Did i really choose this guy to be my husband? I did? Bummer! I'm a real loser then.

And guess what. When i confronted him, he doesn't have a clue in the world that he did something heart breaking. Does he not care anymore? I mean, when he's out in such a weather, i would keep on calling him to know his where about. And i would even send our househelp to wait for him with his slippers and umbrella, on days when he don't have the car. Why can't he return such thoughtfulness? I pray that my kids would not grow up to be as thoughless like him.

Why can't he be like my friend's husband? Or other people's husband who adore  their wife, and cares a lot? I had great dream of growing old and still be in love with one another, but we're what... five years together and there are already issues like this. Our kids arebarely toddlers, and I am already getting tired of his thoughlessness.

Come to think of it, did he ever notice that I'm losing weight, or I'm growing my hair long? Did he ever notice that i'm trying on a new scent, or i got a nice blouse on? And if he notice, does he even care? I wish i could tell him all of this, but I'm dead tired because i tried telling him before, and nothing happened. Such insensitivity! How i wish sensitivity, sensibleness, thoughtfulness could be bought from the corner store. Heck, i'll buy truckloads, so that this guy could have tons. So that he won't hurt the people who love him. Unknowingly or with consent.