PAPERBACKWRITER posted on Sep 10, 2008
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Dear Friends,
I hope you are all doing well. I have most definitely missed a lot of blogs.
This is not a goodbye, but only informing you that I won´t be on much in SoulCast as I used to (since joining SC, I am on almost everyday (lurking), except for holidays - well even then I peek!).
I used to just be silent, but this time I would like to leave a message to all of you.
If you would all be kind, and please post a link/links of blog/blogs in the future (either here, or as a PM), that you would like me to read because otherwise I would miss an important event in your lives - lives I have been following because I want to be uplifted through your experiences, I want to cheer you on, I want to be a part of the changes you are going through . . . the list is long, bottomline: please, don´t let me miss it! :)))))))
Thanks in advance (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I am a bit superstitious but here goes... everything is going well, and I am feeling the old:
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee me :D
more and more <3333333333333333333333333.
My heart melts everyday when I see how the girls grow. And my heart warms up a little bit more, everyday I feel my future is going in the direction I have been wishing for a long time.
I have you all to thank for that... And I will never tire of saying my thanks. You have all made a difference with your words of understanding, encouragement and just words of saying "I was there, I read... you were not alone in your need/loneliness/anger/frustration/confusion..."
But the day has only 24 hours, and I feel always sorry if I cannot comment to everybody, or reply to the comments on my post.
I know you all understand, and I need to learn not to put so much pressure on me... baby steps.
Mousenphonic´s blog: Farewell , eased the pressure in my brain, it made me realize I will never lose your friendship, we won´t lose each other. At this point, prioritizing will only help me remain stable. Stability and balance... baby steps, I could only achieve them slowly but surely.
I have to end this abruptly because little one is teething and needs lots of comfort (she is tugging on my foot now, and whining :( ); I also need to dash to make myself a bit pretty for the breakfast with two very good girlfriends (I am soooooooooooo lucky that they are - and other friends -always there, even if it is not easy understanding what I am going through).
What I am looking forwad most though is when the girls go home from school (4th grade and pre-school) and we could cuddle to a movie!
The only one missing to complete this happiness is my cheeselious Super Gouda, Piet! *counting the days to autumn break or just a spontaneous week-end!!!* . . . { It won´t be long and I will be sending posts from our new home in Holland, darling muaaaaaaaaaaaaah... (hear me universe?!) }
Sending you all lots of positive thoughts, positive energy, and lotsa lotsa love <3
Your friend,
paper ~
P.S.
A nice word each day changes the world...
Comments
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Battycat said on Sep 10, 2008....
Good luck paper, see you around when you get the chance (((((((hugs))))))))) -
secretlife said on Sep 10, 2008....
enjoy your life sweetie pie. that's what we're supposed to do!see you when i see you! -
botoni said on Sep 10, 2008....
Inhale every moment of your new life with zest and exhale every moment with zest! You'll always be important to me and I'll miss you immensely but I know we are all in the depths of your heart. -
Twylarants said on Sep 10, 2008....
How happy you sound! Paper, this is wonderful news! Could there be a better reason for leaving Soulcast than a sudden infusion of happiness? I don't think so!
Echoing Botoni...I'll miss those sweet Paper touch & goes, but I know you'll be thinking of us, how could you not? LOL!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Paper, Piet, & the girls)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Love,
Cath
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skald said on Sep 10, 2008....
Joanna. You have meant a lot on SoulCast. I will miss you but I understand. Enjoy your life and have a good time. The girls are so lovely, (((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))) -
quietone said on Sep 10, 2008....
{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}} to you my dear papery!! You keep up the good positive work whilist you are temporarily missing. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers ~ until we meet again ~ keep looking up. -
FutureGoddess said on Sep 10, 2008....
Paper - just come by every once in a while to say hello - Glad to "hear" you are so happy! -
gingersoul said on Sep 10, 2008....
Joanna......in a way i am happy you are taking this time off ....It means your life is fullfilling you and you want to be totally immersed in it....It means you prefer (naturally) spend your time with your precious RL dolls than with the paper ones...I wish all the best, my dear Joanna.You have my email f you want to talk outside Sc.Have the time of your life {{{{[hugs}}}}} -
travelr712 said on Sep 10, 2008....
sc is like those friends you're having breakfast with, it'll always be here whenever you have a little time. pop in once in awhile and say hi, will ya paper? -
Lucytorial said on Sep 10, 2008....
Drink your life up girl, your happiness is infectious and every day I will remember to say a nice word.HUGGIES BACK AT YOU -
wombat said on Sep 10, 2008....
It's good to hear that things are going well for you and that you will be busy in a good way! My best to you and your family----and wow...moving to Holland! Enjoy it all to the fullest! -
Jenna said on Sep 10, 2008....
My darling girl....as always, I wish you the best. I am happy to hear things may be going in the right direction for you. You have my love....always!Jenps. Enjoy your little ones.....before you know it they will be all grown up.xo -
lionesss said on Sep 10, 2008....
hiya paper, i wish you all the luck and happiness in the world, you go and enjoy your girls, take care my friend~~lioness x ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) -
PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
[looks above, tries to wipe tears of joy, and hide embarassed*** face]
***
embarassed because i still cannot help wandering around SC last night... it is simply my destressing time before i go to bed and finally turn in... *sigh*
Dear Friends,
Thank you so much for taking time to read, and leave a message.
I am not so good at writing short messages because I always think I cannot convey the appreciation I feel (I don´t judge others, who can; you see, I am only hard on myself, and not on anybody else! lol).
I will try to practice though, and what better way to begin than NOW, and not wait for Oct 1st (lol, another weird thing I have been wanting to blog about but never managed to... my obsession on starting over with new habits on a Monday or the first day of the month... but it is like doing New Year´s resolutions... utterly frustrating!)... so, go Joanna... just do it!
Battycat ~
Thank you so very much, dear Battycat!
I am so glad you came back.
I wish I had wise words to say to help you through with the new relationship you have. I wanted to say something but it will take me at least an hour to compose it! :( . . . short version : if it feels like love, it´s worth the risk
I wish you happiness in whatever decision you make. (((huggies)))
secretlife ~
Thank you, dearest!
Yes, I am finally - slowly though, lol typical me! - acknowledging the fact that happiness is just in front of my nose...
I am living the life, I just have to learn to enjoy it and not look around what I could be missing!
No questioning (I am trying very hard!!!) is this really love, is this too good to be true? I wholly embrace it, I thank the power that be for this gift...PERIOD.
As I have said, above no more looking around...just being thankful for what I have...
My angels, My love, My family, My friends...
no more seeking the approval of those who do not care... PERIOD.
botoni ~
It means a lot to me that you took time to leave a message, dear botty ...
(((huggies)))
I do not want to be mysterious but I don´t know how to say the words without being a chapter of a novel.
Perhaps, when the time is right, and when I have the courage, I could write you a PM?
My warmest regards to you, & Guy.
Twylarants ~
I am happy, dear Twy! Exhausted but happy!
Little one has not been sleeping well for days. She is now with her father to see the pediatrician. I should actually be catching some Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz but I am so overwhelmed by the words you all left that I simply needed to write back (not that the unanswered comments on my blogs did not move me or make me happy etc... it is just the timing to answer is always off..gahhhhhhhh *embarassed again!* )
Soooooooooooo happy to see you commenting around dearest!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Cath))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
blubbies*** to you .... ooooh i wanna share ....
the story of the blubbies
i hope it will make you smile because you never fail to make me smile (even when you are not wise-crackin, you make me smile warmly)
think, i shared it to grape in his blog very quick but told the story first to ginger in a PM...
piet and i use skype as instant messenger(although we have MSN, and yahoo too ...another story) . it is our private place; our connection to each other when we are separated by so much distance.
it will never replace the passion we share for each other in real life but we make the best out of it. so, you could imagine us sendsing lotsa and lotsa of
(L)(L)(L) - which will show lotsa of hearts
or
:* :* :* - which will show lotsa kissing emos LOLLLLLLLLLLLl
(hug) - which will show a bear giving a hug *giggle*
...anyway (LOL, i know, very silly but it is what makes life so wondeful... sharing the silliness with someone who is as silly as one can be :D ) everytime you send a message whether an emoticon or a text, you will the sound (i think it is the default) of a BLUB, like the sound of a pebble when it hits the water...
and so the blub became a shortcut for Piet and I to say: I love you
*sorry, had to cut story short because little one is home from the doctor*
me lovies, please i beg your apologies if i cannot come back right away to continue my individual thank yous!
skald ~
quietone ~
FutureGoddess ~
gingersoul ~
travelr712 ~
Lucytorial ~
wombat ~
Jenna ~
lionesss ~
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moonriver said on Sep 11, 2008....
hi there paper my friend. like you, just peeking in for a nano-sec.
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PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
missing you sooooooooooo moonie!
thank goodness for archives!
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moonriver said on Sep 11, 2008....
and also say hi to piet and your beautiful girls for me. mabuhay kayong lahat... :-)
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PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
salamat po, ginoong moonie! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
(he will be so touched !!!)
magkikita tayong lahat, pangako :D
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UPDATE :
writing this to remind me that, "alles wird gut" ... all will always turn out well...
little one has very dry cough (thank goodness nothing in her throat that we feared was obstrucking her breathing properly!) as we already suspected but wanted confirmed.
although she has had high temperature the last days, she has been eating and drinking well.
she did not even lose her sunny disposition - grinning, gurgling a lot - but was not as playful as the girls are use to see her...(the girls always try to be close to little one´s face and she almost always caress their faces but now because she is not feeling well... she just shoves them away... which only makes the girls laugh, and do it again...lol)
she is now peacefully resting... alas the laundry, lunch-cooking, vacuuming awaits me...
have a nice day to (evening to you moonie !!!) all...if i am not so exhausted will come back here tonight...at the moment i am really limiting my time here because of things i need to finish ... i hope to update you about it, at the soonest possible time...even if it is only one line!
blubbbbbbbbbies
papery ~
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PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
skald ~
Thank you so much, dearest skald <3333333
I will still be here, checking from time to time but I will be unable to read like I used to.
I would just like to inform our SC friends to avoid misunderstanding.
I still commented a bit yesterday because I could not help it! You know how hard it is to let go of a habit specially being here in SC for almost 2 years now.
I just don´t want to offend anybody, with my limited time I cannot leave a comment to everyone even if I would like to. I have to be stronger still so I won´t put pressure to myself to want to be there for everyone out of my gratitude.
The hard thing is, I have rediscovered writing again, and would like to record and recall memories but I cannot promise I will have the energy and time to respond to commenters! This is a conflict that I don´t know how to resolve, thus this blog to ease the pressure and give me time to think how to blog efficiently.
Oh, you could add me to skype too, if you would like :))) I have a skype for friends and a skype just for Piet and me
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
quietone ~
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
quieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! don´t ever be! quiet i mean! LOL
my baby steps mantra, i owe to you <333... it has been said to me before but you reminded me at a crucial point in my life... i thank you dearly :_ )
i want to focus on the girls to catch up on things i have missed due to my being (psychologically) ill for so long... i was there for them but i was doing things automatically... i was there but not really.... i don´t want to beat myself about it now, and just move forward and live...
still, it helps to read back in my archives, and say "whew...i overcome that difficult time"
as i wrote a friend in a PM here... i just need to SLEEP, lol because otherwise i will be landing in the dark ugly pit, i desperately crawled out of this year!
mantra: baby steps towards stability and balance... oooohmmmmmmmmmmm
FutureGoddess ~
I will do FG! Thank you so much for leaving a message <3333333
Your blog is one of those I am following and sending positive energy to (((huggies))) :)
My apologies if I have not made my presence known! As you might have noticed, I am prone to monumental comments *wry smile*
Always, always wishing you the best.
gingersoul ~
Bellissima, you along with dearest Secret and Godmomsie Jenna have followed my path here from the beginning... I have always considered you three as my bright SC angels!
Who do you want to be? Angel Lucy Liu, Cameron Diaz or Drew Barrymore?!
Ooooooooops, they are the 21st century Charlie´s angels *giggle*
You bring out the clown in me...lol
Hope you got my PM last night
muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh
you will forevaaaa and evaaaaaaaaaa remain my heavenly SoulSistaaaaaah
travelr712 ~
I willlllll !
I wish to give back as much if not more than I get, and I am showered with kindness, love and friendship... Alas only one body, that carries a brain that goes out of kilt with little sleep, lol
Thanks for your lovely words in my other blogs, dear friend. They were very much appreciated!
:)))))))))))))
Lucytorial ~
May the best ye've ever seen
Be the worst ye'll ever see
May a moose ne'er leave yer girnal
Wi' a tear drap in his e'e
May ye aye keep hale an' he'rty
Till ye're auld eneuch tae dee
May ye aye be jist as happy
As we wish ye aye tae be
;)
blubbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbieeeeeeeeeees
<3
wombat ~
taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks, wombie :)
(((((((((((huggies))))))))))))
the move to holland is planned after summer 2009; please send us lotsa of positive thoughts that it would all go smoothly!
Jenna ~
Thank you so very much, dear Godmomsie!
I have given up on having huge life expectations; I have outlined plans but I am better now (much!) at going with the flow (I feel, I am, lol); I take one day at a time and not 5 years ahead, lol...Some lessons learned ...again, lol.
Yes, seeing the little one together with her older sisters makes it poignantly vivid how the wheel of time keeps on spinning with or without me... and I want to be there not only in body but in spirit and with my all my heart. They deserve no less.
blub <3 blub<3 blub<3
lionesss ~
Thank you so very much, dear lionesss for taking time to leave me words of good wishes.
<333333333333333333333333333333333333333
They do my heart well. Thank you oh so much.
I will give you a shout as soon as I start writing again.
I am so happy you have a friend in pusscat. It is so very heartwarming to read your devotion for each other.
I wish you too, all the luck and happiness!!!
:X
((((((((((((huggies))))))))))))))
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PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
[looks above comment posted...looks down]
nope, can´t break the habit of lonnnnnnnng comments *sigh*
i leave you with this song, which i have not listened to for a long time
i hope, i am not letting you down , by being absent for a while...
Yes dearest Twy, I always have our SC friends in my thoughts... and yes Botty, in the depths of my heart <3! :)))
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PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 11, 2008....
for the girls (the middle one requested it to be posted, lol)
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travelr712 said on Sep 11, 2008....
the fact that the beatles did that performance from the roof top made it famous. the fact that the cops shut it down made it historical. -
GrapeKoolaid said on Sep 11, 2008....
[fingers crossed]
For you... :)
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queenparanoia said on Sep 13, 2008....
awww paper... i would pm you my important posts.... nt the rant ones... anyway i understand youre situation... i hope you could blog more cuz i'll surely miss you!!! ;-) -
PAPERBACKWRITER said on Oct 10, 2008....
blubbie spam for Trav
comment from Lucy´s post Okilee...For convenience, I will copy paste my comment above to Twy here:
PAPERBACKWRITER said less than a minute ago...
[not fully awake yet]
[background remix music: Jingle Bells, Santa Claus is coming to Town, We Wish A(n) (early!) Merry Christmas]
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~travelr712 said on Sep 18, 2008....
dog gone :-)somewhere there is a special blubbie shared
everywhere I want to spread blubbies
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:D
<3
paper
Twylarants ~
I am happy, dear Twy! Exhausted but happy!
Little one has not been sleeping well for days. She is now with her father to see the pediatrician. I should actually be catching some Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz but I am so overwhelmed by the words you all left that I simply needed to write back (not that the unanswered comments on my blogs did not move me or make me happy etc... it is just the timing to answer is always off..gahhhhhhhh *embarassed again!* )
Soooooooooooo happy to see you commenting around dearest!
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Cath))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
blubbies*** to you .... ooooh i wanna share ....
the story of the blubbies
i hope it will make you smile because you never fail to make me smile (even when you are not wise-crackin, you make me smile warmly)
think, i shared it to grape in his blog very quick but told the story first to ginger in a PM...
piet and i use skype as instant messenger(although we have MSN, and yahoo too ...another story) . it is our private place; our connection to each other when we are separated by so much distance.
it will never replace the passion we share for each other in real life but we make the best out of it. so, you could imagine us sendsing lotsa and lotsa of
(L)(L)(L) - which will show lotsa of hearts
or
:* :* :* - which will show lotsa kissing emos LOLLLLLLLLLLLl
(hug) - which will show a bear giving a hug *giggle*
...anyway (LOL, i know, very silly but it is what makes life so wondeful... sharing the silliness with someone who is as silly as one can be :D ) everytime you send a message whether an emoticon or a text, you will the sound (i think it is the default) of a BLUB, like the sound of a pebble when it hits the water...
and so the blub became a shortcut for Piet and I to say: I love you
*sorry, had to cut story short because little one is home from the doctor*
And that is the evolution of the blubbies THE END [bows] :D
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RollingC said on Oct 10, 2008....
When did blubbies start ?
Rc
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