• lionesss said on Sep 09, 2008....

  hiya day, how are you today,you know im exactly the same, out of nowhere my depression pop's, i could be having the most brilliant dayout with my kids but the next day it hits me like a ton of bricks, i cant explain why either,its soso frustrating as my kids do their best to understand , but i feel so guilty and end up feeling even worse, so go into hiding, and leave things to get out of hand,i just wish i could be stronger at times,,,i hope youre feeling alot better today and you had a ok day at work hugs~~lionesss x

• day2day said on Sep 10, 2008....

  hi lion, I'm doing a lot better this morning.  Whenever i start feeling like that, i go on to other things. I'm really interested in taking pictures with my digital camera.
  I love taking pictures of nature. Flowers, floods, trees, lakes, rivers, mountains, birds, and all.  So, i spent a lot of time uploading a lot of photos to flickr.com
  I reached my limit of uploaded photos with the 'free' account.   The next step is 'pro'. which meas, 'mo money'...       It's a lot of work, but i enjoy it.              You know, most of my depression days are just that. They all last one day and that's it.  But, what a long day it is when all you really want to do is take a zanax.  he he
  day

• OscarB said on Sep 10, 2008....

  Hi day...I hope you are feeling better?  There is nothing worse than feeling that heaviness and being totally unable to will yourself out of it.  

• scarum said on Sep 13, 2008....

  been there done that, can't getout.

• day2day said on Sep 13, 2008....

  hi oscar,   Yes, i'm feeling much better. There is no way on this earth or heaven that i could ever will myself out of the throes of depression.  Depression has a death grip that can only be broken by 'action'.   When i went to work that night i started to get into my rhythm and pushed myself. It works for me.
   
  hi scar,  You say you can't get out?  You can get out.  There are many many people here in SoulCast that have much valuable advice. Like i told oscar,      how i continue on, is action.  Just do it.  Be kind to yourself. Give yourself something to look forward to.  For me, it's my job.  I am after a promotion.
  day

• SlickNick said on Sep 15, 2008....

  Hey day, I just wanted to tell you that your comment, "Depression has a death grip that can only be broken by action" is so true. I think it answers a lot of questions that people have over how depressed people react. I think if people were more empathic with how it feels to be depressed and the urge to let it all out, that they would be more forgiving of the depressed person. I'm happy to hear that you are feeling better. I appreciate you and your comments and advice. I think if you really knew the impact you have on people, you would value yourself more and not be so depressed.  

• day2day said on Sep 16, 2008....

  hi slick,  Thanks for the encouragement. Sometimes i need
  that.  I have had to learn to value myself. The mind is a crazy place.
  Bringing order to chaos is more trial and error.    There is one thing that i always try to remind myself of. If your trying to fix something and you keep doing the same thing over and over, It'll never be fixed. Like spinning your wheels.
  day

• eurekame said on Sep 27, 2008....

  hey day, its been awhile...
   
  so much to catch myself up on it seems! puppies! so jealous!
   
  sometimes i believe that depression comes and goes in some, (me included). it is hard not to succumb to the thoughts that bad things are a coming...
   
  you are the 1 person who can make a difference in your life in the end, you decide. i truely hope you know how wonderfully special you are, and knowing that should push that doubt away.
   
  i've been missing you...
   
  we need to start 'our type' of blog back in forth covo we always did...
   
  me.

• day2day said on Sep 27, 2008....

   
  hi me, I have missed u2.  I had 5 puppies since you've been gone. PUPPIES 4SALE ...  AKC Registered Dachsund puppies,
  Mom & Dad on site. (plus one older brother(Ozzy) ).
  Make wonderful lapdogs & playmates. Dallas, Tx. area.
  I gotta make a poster sheet to take to work and hang on the bulletin board. I'll put an ad in the paper on Monday. The trouble is: I always get so attached to them. But, i know they are going to good homes and to people who love dogs. I have missed our conversations also. I remember the 'my favorite word' , and the games we used to play as kids. I loved that so much. ride and hide
  ha ha  I'll have more time tomorrow to spend with 'ol lappy.  I worked last night a night of OT. I'll looking forward to next paycheck. I am dog/puppy tired. Nite nite me
  day
  ps....thank u for the kind words.
   
  

• eurekame said on Sep 27, 2008....

  Day,
   
  They are such cuties! My dog would so eat em'! I've never had puppies in my house before...I would want to keep them ALL! hehe! I'm looking forward to my next paycheck also, God knows I need it. I'm excited no matter, but I got in some overtime to.
   
   I did allot of soul searching while gone...so many stories to be told...
   
  for another time of course.
   
  -Me
   
   

• day2day said on Sep 27, 2008....

  hi me, I can't wait to hear about your stories.
  I guess your dog would think my puppies were light snacks, huh?
  I'm glad your excited too about your paycheck. I don't know about you, but every dollar counts these days. Lots of bills to pay. I'm just glad i'm able to work and bring home some money. The OT is going to help a little. I'm just glad it's over. Now i can rest for a couple days. yay! day

• ana's_soul said on Oct 01, 2008....

  I know how you feel. As i'm sure you can guess from my posts. :)  You seem very interesting.... REAlly....  Well, I have to go.. I'm in class.
   
  Bye

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