I don't know, I'm making a mess of this relationship business, what do they say - be careful what you wish for!
I thought a relationship was what I wanted, now I've got one I'm not so sure. I've been on my own for nearly ten years, I'm used to it, and I'm probably really set in my ways now, my animals are my "family", they come first, and I'd never neglect them, but this new man doesn't really understand this.
The cats have the run of the house, and my horse, well, I look after myself, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have a small group of friends, so its not like I'm really lonely, I just thought it might be quite nice to meet someone again, maybe I was wrong.
I've only known this man for about eight weeks, he's nice, but he's already talking about going on holiday with him and his son, I met some of the family last week and I think that was a big mistake, from the things they were saying its obvious that they think things are really serious, it scared the life out of me and I've been avoiding him now for the last week.
When I first met him I thought we had quite a lot in common, but the more I've got to know him I've realised we have very little in common at all! Its really put me off, I just want to finish the relationship now.
The thing is he is a nice person, and I hate hurting people, I'm a wimp really. I know I just need to be honest and tell him how I feel, I'm sure he will back off and expect to still see each other, the trouble is I think I've gone past that, I just want to end it and never get involved with anyone again, and go back to my boring but comfortable existence.
Maybe I've become a bit of a control freak, I'm used to being in control of my life, and I feel thats at risk.
Oh bugger, I don't know how to handle this, its been such a long time since i've been in the dating game, I think I'll just stay out of it in future.
