We talked today for about 30 minutes. My ex lover man wants to see me. Of course he says he just misses his best friend but I know he has alterior (is that how you spell that??) motives.
Part of me wants to see him, I mean you get use to talking to someone basically every day for 5 years and then its over. I've already broken one of my cardinal rules of breaking up:
Thou shalt not speak to the ex for at least two weeks after the break up
So I say to myself, self can it hurt to have dinner with him? Of course it could hurt. Second cardinal rule:
Thou shalt not have any face to face interaction with the ex for at least a month after the break up
Not to say that I would fall back in love with him but I'd definitely notice that I missed his company. But I am determined not to go back.
I guess the worst part of this break up is that the relationship wasn't technically bad. He is a nice guy who just doesn't get the whole romance thing. And some people could live with that but I just found that I couldn't. If I'm going to spend the rest of my life with someone then I want a little romance, a little spice. I mean I'm 32 years old and I want to look forward to being intimate with my man and that was not the case.
In the end I begged off dinner but he is still trying for some type of face time. I guess eventually I will either have to bite the bullet and tell him I can't talk/see him or go ahead and meet up with him. Maybe we can work it out and be friends like I think we should have been in the first place.
