I couldn't wait any longer, I mean it was getting to be a question of whether or not I was going to be physically ill or cal this guy.  So I called right before I left work.  He was still working and asked if he could call me back.  Okay so he is working hard and that's a good thing.  Plus then I can attribute the no call to his being at work.

 

He eventually calls back and we talk but its feeling a little less head over heels in love and more like my homie from back in the day.  I cut the call short partly because I pull up at the babysitter and partly because I'm disappointed.

 

My son officially kicked me to the curb...he is all of 5.  He didn't want to sit next to me at the movies.  Made me sit in the back by myself while he hung out with his friends.  True this is a sidebar but how sad is that?  I sit in the back and text The One.  He's polite and texts back but no sparks or anything.

 

I call him when I get back to the house...again my kid has deserted me to run off and have pizza/ice cream with his friends.  We talk for a little while and he tells me that he is going to get something to eat and call me later.  I mean even asks if I will be up.  He doesn't call back or even send a text in the morning.  Why ask if you aren't going to call anyway.

 

So by this point not only am I disappointed.  I mean not even a I thought about you this week.  And then the not calling back, pet peeve of mine.  Goes for girls/guys, anyone.  If you say you are going to do something, then do it.  Else don't say anything at all.

 

Okay so here is the kinda retarded part...I text him this morning:

 

Me: "Nice not calling me back-I'm slow but after a while I get the picture"

 

The One: "Why do I always get the blame?"

 

Me: "Not blaming you.  Accepting responsibility for letting myself fall a little-especially without a 30 day waiting period.  I got my feelings hurt"

 

Dead silence on his end and by this time I'm starting to feel like a crazy stalker chick so I text again

 

Me:  "Dont be mad.  Just know that I care about you"

 

Again nothing but I can't do anymore.

 

Basically I have to leave this in his court because for some reason I have got it bad for this guy and that can only spell disaster if he ain't feeling me back.  So I am going to spend the weekend doing all of the stuff I couldn't do because I was living in la la land.  And if he calls/texts then he does and if not, I will live.

 

But God, if you are listening and I know you are, please let him call...