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i know i come across and sound like a stupid bitch most of the time.i know i'm alway's ranting and rambling and wth ever.....just my stupid bs.but i come here at my angriest to vent usualy as a last alternative.if i did'nt vent the way i do then more damage would be done.where i live now it's alot harder to get away with punching holes in the wall's .....i recently had 4 closet doors replaced because of holes punched in them.in one of my bedrooms i put a chair recently through the wall and have managed to keep it hidden from anyone--i have a mattress standing against the wall. anyway..........i can't afford to be arrested again.i can't stand 302's.i can't at all stand other's having any control anything of me.i kjnow i'm not well liked here b/c of how i come across.yeah it makes me uncomtfortable to come at all here.but like anyone else and everyone else i gotta vent somewhere to .i'm tired of 'acting out'.i've actualy gone a week now w/o cutting myself.i've not been here to post much lately because i'm to uncomfortable but i have been reading some of the post's each day.thoughj i don't comment at all.      i feel really stupid and embarrassed to say this but i'm not just angry hateful bitch.but i am when i post.that's all i'm gonna say on it for now.                    AND hey secretlife.if you read this,Thank you for everything.most of all thank's for giving me a chance and sticking around.your the best and your still my favorite SC'er.   ;))


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  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 06, 2008....

    I´m coming back, killing to comment properly!  I just want to say, I am glad you posted :)

    (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    paper ~


  • Mamie said on Sep 06, 2008....
    glad to see you Killie, go easy on yourself and do us all a favor and delete the moron above's comment...there are such ugly people in the world and do they kiss their mothers with that mouth? EWWWWWWWA!!!!
  • secretlife said on Sep 06, 2008....
    you mean underneath that angry bitch is a sweet loving woman? 
    ha!  i already knew it!  you couldn't fool me babydoll.
     
    i love you!
    just keep right on being you and doing your best, ok?  nobody could ask for more than that!!!
  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    hi Mamie and secret....hey Mamie thank's.but i got a mouth almost as bad BUT i don't kiss my mom at all.  :)))             secret..i'll get to you then,  ;))
  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    oh paper~ i hope you come back........  :)))
  • gingersoul said on Sep 06, 2008....
    I am glad to read this post.....there are a lot of smiles too...

    Btw, you can write whatever you like in your space... specially if it helps.....:-)
  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    thank you gingersoul. :)))
  • ALIENated said on Sep 06, 2008....
    
    Did you ever consider a punching bag, or maybe yoga? Therapy? Sorry, I am
    always trying to solve people's problems when all they really need is someone
    to listen to their problems. Rant on. That is what we are all here for, to listen,
    and to rant.
    
    
  • Mamie said on Sep 06, 2008....

    Hey K:

    thanks for eliminating that fool...now Paper-dear, this did not refer to you of course! there was some graffiti that Killie took care of!! Do come back...we are having a little afternoon support for killie here and we do so need your smiling face too! best to all, mamie

  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    hey ALIENated.yeah i've done therapy.i just finished 3 years with the best T one could ask for.they taught me alot and i use the stuff when i can.but i can get very stubborn and do my old ways.thank's for your comment.   :))   and Mamie.hey.thanks for your support and always stopping by.your a  cool chic.and i alway's like seeeing you.and yeah where is paper????
  • gingersoul said on Sep 06, 2008....
    K4U........Paperdoll is sleeping.........at least that is what she should be doing....she needs her rest........ :-)
  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    thank's for the info ginger.    :-)) back at ya.
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 06, 2008....

    *giggle*

    No offense taken Mamie!  We "know" each other toooo long...and I know you lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrv me :D

    Sorry it took too long to return, dearest killing (((((((((((huggies))))))))... I was thinking what to say the whole time while I was away.

    I know, we don´t know each other in RL or I don´t know all the details of your life but I know/feel/recognize the emotions you need to release.  I have almost followed your blogging from the time you joined... and I got you...why you blogged the way you did...

    I am not going to make much sense, and I might come back again to clear things after I have posted some thoughts ... (or PM )

    As Ginger said,

    you can write whatever you like in your space... specially if it helps..... :-)

    I wish you would comment around again, as you tentatively did... because it is how I saw another side of you... you always had something to contribute, even if you thought (perhaps afterwards? ) that it was not worth it...but everyone is happy with a comment!

    I don´t want to "push" you into doing something you don´t want to do... you see, I like you without knowing so much about you... I trust my instincts. 

    I see a person trying to make sense of life, struggling and trying to overcome hardships with the resources she have.

    If you have all the blogs that you posted in draft...please read the comments and you will see, so much acceptance from people, who are cheering for you...(where did you get the idea that nobody likes you here?)...the people, who believes in you, cheers for you are the ones that count, right?

    I hope, I have not overstepped myself, dear killing...

    I just want to see you get through this difficult time... overcome, cope and triumph... I know you are striving for it because why else would you be here, right? :)

    I almost see the day, when you too will "converse" with someone here in SC...cheering them on (like you have already begun in the past, but abruptly stopped...)...

    If it will help you cope with life, come here  - rant and vent... and if you are so inclined... comment, reach out, let the other side of you out... it won´t hurt... you are always welcome to my blogs... always.

    Warmest regards,

    paper ~


  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 06, 2008....

    Gingie!!!

    [ blushes, feeling guilty ]

    I should be sleeping... I promised Piet, who hit the covers 45 minutes ago!  But I wanted to fulfill my promise!


  • killingme4u said on Sep 06, 2008....
    wow,paper.i thought only the weather was gonna make my day.you just made my whole weekend.thank you...  :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 06, 2008....

    sorry it took so long! (your comments were not yet there...so it took me half an hour to type my comment..calculating, lol)

    my cousin moved to another part of Germany, and l just found out :(

    our monopoly lasted also until 9 pm Germany time, so I was late in calling the cousin (phone call almost an hour and half..we have not talked for ages!)... then talked to Piet who has been working the entire week and coming home so late :S .... and then i was brain dead...lol




  • gingersoul said on Sep 06, 2008....
    Joanna!!!! Go to sleep! NOW!!!...{hugs}
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 06, 2008....

    you are sooooo welcome, you too are giving me good feelings, when i know that you feel better , dear killing


    :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    ... and i need all the good feelings, i can get too, you see?

    Ginge! (((((((((((hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhugggggggggggies)))))))))))))))))))))))

    will do bella! LOL... i am the worst, aren´t i?

    <3

    joanna ~


  • Lucytorial said on Oct 24, 2008....
    Living girl... you know I don't judge you whie lyour here, what you write is what you write your venting... I 'd rather read that you are venting here than harming yourself or your property.
     
    Hugs and hey, don't be afraid to comment, I like seeing you pop by.. makes me smile.

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