i've been dealing with the same lard ass soulcast issue as most everyone else. but here i am giving the damn site a fuckin try. again. (last night i gave up and blew this pop-stand since soulcast stripped me of my voice...Soulcast, you BASTARD!!!)

ok, now that i got that stuff out of the way, what's on my mind. ok, here's what's on my mind. 1.) cute guy from gym and various fantasies, 2.) hope/ peace/ love, basically anything the hippies believe in, 3.) gotta remember this weekend to actually organize my bullshit paperwork before i go insane!, 4.) what to do saturday? muddle through more homework at home and go nuts or drive to see relative, drive home and go nuts?, 5.) what i just read for lit...it's bothering me i dunno why but the Puritans wrote a covenant with God and within that agreement focused heavily on serving others without regard for oneself, loving as if they are one, and basically everything they're doing is for God because they are of the Lord. i was not brought up with religion in my life so this covenant rubs me wrong. plus, i mean, look at what mixing religion with politics does. they are opposing forces and inevitably clash. But, and i capitalize that but, what the Puritans wanted...all to be on a level field, to help one another, to celebrate together, to mourn together, to stand united...it just seems like these ideas, UNITY, i dunno it's talked about and maybe we see various instances of it (STAND UP TO CANCER 1 HOUR CONCERT/ TELATHON IN USA)....but do you really feel like we do these things? it just seems like an illusion.