As I have written before, I do have twins. Somestimes they are fun, and well, other times...not. The #1 twin has a kidney condition that is going to be progressive as he goes through life, possibly ending up with renal failure. That is a long time down the road I hope. He has though, developed symptoms of early stage MS. He is having issues with his legs, has recurring bouts of gout(kidney related). I got him a walking cane. He has fallen, and at times lurches around like he is bombed. this isnt so, he doesnt trust his legs to hold him. He has taken to going without the cane...thinking he can do without it cuz he is only 30...ya, till he falls and someone thinks he is drunk or worse. Yes, he is very vain...and says he feels stupid carrying "that damn stick" He really pissed me off the other nite when he called at 130 in the morning, asking me to come and get him cuz he was having a hard time walking......and no, he didnt have it with him.

He also has to take prednisone which alters his personality, and sometimes not for the best. doesnt exactly make him Mr. Sunshine. He turns into quite the dickhead...nasty, short tempered and very critical of everyone else, very not nice to be around......

Thing is...I KNOW what is causing the mood thing, the nasty disposition, I know why he is behaving they way he is. I know there is fear, and depression, and I know the side affects that go along with the drugs he has to take to make life manageble...but it doesnt make it any easier to deal with. Just because I understand, doesnt mean everyone else does, ya know.

The other twin,wow, he is the one with the anxiety issues. He on the other hand has been doing fairly good. he has managed to straighten his life around in the right direction.  he hasnt had any big blowups for a while now, hasnt zeroed in on me and gone into attack mode. Lordy, I need to find a deserted piece of ground and go hide sometimes.

Life as a whole...it could be worse, I am doing ok, still have a roof over my head, and food in the cupboards, so I cant really complain. Sure do need to whine sometimes though and to hell with what people think.