When you are in limbo like me, the world doesn't make much sense--but still you bend your back and try to dance the selfish dance and say, "Hey, watch this."
I have not one darn thing to say about myself and how things have improved lately for me.
But I am still in line for the dance.
A publisher called and left one of those messages for me to submit something, which made me feel good and at the same time feel so stupid. I really didn't know I had a "publisher," but they keep calling. Guess they want money.
I keep lying in bed and thinking if I was "someone" I would be writing and doing something besides dreaming, but I keep being "no one."
I did have a new title come to me today and with it a whole new way of writing, but that was it. Just a glimpse into what it would be like to be a real writer.
What the crap is wrong with me? Laziness sucks.
Pretending that you are something you think (know) you will never be sucks even worse.
But as long as my back is flexible, maybe I can get under the wire.
Did you see that?
wombat posted on Sep 05, 2008
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botoni said on Sep 05, 2008....
Ms Wombie! Please follow these instructions:
Grasp right shoe laces in right hand.
Wrap tightly around hand.
Grasp left shoe lace in left hand.
Wrap tightly around hand.
Pull like crazy!
I know you can pull yourself up by the shoe laces and get going. Do it girl! I'm rooting from the side lines.
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wombat said on Sep 05, 2008....
Up with the bootstraps................thanks, botoni! -
quietone said on Sep 05, 2008....
and if the boot straps don't work, I'll come over and kick you in the butt to get you goin' (na just kidding). -
wombat said on Sep 05, 2008....
Ouch! -
wishyouwerehere said on Sep 05, 2008....
Hi Wombie -Just be who you are - the strain of trying to "be someone" or anyone else for that matter drains our creative juices by setting up vague expectations that always seem out of reach. Honor the potential that already exists without yourself and let the rest flow.- Wishy -
hotaka said on Sep 06, 2008....
Pretending that you are something you think (know) you will never be sucks even worse.
Wombat, I am shocked. Just because you are not published yet does not mean you are pretending to be something you are not. You are a writer and you are living the life that all writers live before their first publsihed works. When J.K. Rowling was plugging away with pen and paper in a cafe, scribbling out the pages of Harry Potter I am sure she had moments like you. But if you give up that life then there is no pretending and no route to success. What makes the difference is that you are attempting to be on that path. Sitting and only thinking how nice it would be is pretending. You are producing something. Some days don't bring much. Others the ideas just flow. There are no guarantees about staying on the path, but there is a sure guarantee if you jump off.
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RollingC said on Sep 06, 2008....
Hang in there Wombie....you can do it. :^) Rc -
skald said on Sep 06, 2008....
Yes hang in there Wombie and I might come and help Botty and Quiet if it is needed.
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queenparanoia said on Sep 06, 2008....
wombie keep bending... someday you'll stand up straight with stronger back than before... so keep bending wombie... ;-) -
wombat said on Sep 07, 2008....
wishyouwerehere: You know, that makes alot of sense! I think I have always wanted to "become" or to "reinvent" myself, with dreams of big change. Maybe I should do as you said and just look at it as "me" and what I do. Thanks.hotaka: Another good sound bit of advice.....! I feel properly chastised.....ha. No, really--I am reading and re-reading these comments--and will hang on to them! Thank you for the well-thought out words of encouragement and advice!RollingC: I will try---I keep saying "tomorrow I will work on it" but the closest I come to doing it is practising my grammar by reading books....ha!skald: Ok....just don't hit about the head area....ha.. I need a good thrashing, but might need to preserve what few brain cells I have still working. Thanks!Queen: Thank you, too. (deep knee and back bends now...a one, and a two....creak, creak, pop!)
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