so as my earlier post this week indicated ive been mentally torturing myself, and as you probably all guessed it was to do with a guy.
Quiet boy.
Ever since he went to leeds fest he's been acting weird. i didnt see him for 10 days until last sunday (my birthday). so at first i thought the weirdness was just because we hadnt seen eachother and everything was over text/phone.
So i saw him sunday night, and as was to be expected he was been tortoise again, kinda shy but eventually he warmed up and all was good. So i stayed at his that night but in the morning trhings were weird. It was like he didnt want me there, i felt like an absolute idiot!
Anyways i havent seen him since monday, and his weirdness on text's and online has continued, things like not saying bye and just disappearing, or just ignoring my text.
So last night he texts me, and its quite late so im a bit on edge by then any way. We send a few texts and then all of a sudden he disappears again, i know he has the message cos i get delivery reports. Half an hour goes by and im seriously going crazy, so i text him...
the following is our conversation...
Me "why do you never say bye anymore? you just disappear and drop conversations, if you've gone off me you need to tell me, its not fair not to xxxx"
Him "jeez i was just about to text u, why do u think i dnt like u ne more? xxxx"
Me "because you act differently towards me now. i noticed when i was at yours on monday, its like you dont want me around but you dont want to say xxxx"
45 minutes go by...
Him "i guess your in a bad mood? xxxx"
Me " did you not get my last text or are you purposely just ignoring my question? im not mad its just been uppsetting me and i need to know xxxx"
Him "course i still like you, but you make it sound like im not acting good enough and it makes me feel sad when you say that"
Me "of course your good enough, i wouldnt be bothered if i didnt like you so much. but youve started acting alot cooler towards me and its worried me cos you leave so soon xxxx"
45 mins still no reply
Me "I guess your mad now? im sorry its just me and my stupid insecurity, but i had to ask cos i was getting really upset. in future ill just keep quiet cos i really like you and dont ever want you to feel like you arent good enough, because you are far too good for me xxxx"
i hate myself for sending this message and he never replied.
we are talking right now via msn but nothing has been sorted and i still feel rubbish.
But what can i do?
help please a tortured and upset phie xxx