It really wasn't one thing yesterday, but a convergence of many small things that did it. Kind of like the universe had it out for me.
As I walked to my car yesterday after work I felt drained emotionally. Physically I was feeling tired, but I knew it was because emotionally I was exhausted. It was the kind of ache you get when you're depressed, but I'm not really that depressed considering my circumstances.
It didn't help that things at home ended up in the too stupid to go into catagory. Nothing new, just more of the same old shit. What irritated me is that I ended up eating sugary puffy cold cereal for dinner because I was too drained to even make an effort to find something healthy.
I am considering the possibility that I'm too emotionally sensitive. By that I mean that when I'm presented with hostility and other negative emotions that it zaps my energy to try to either fend it off or difuse it. It sure felt like that was the issue yesterday.
Today I'm better, but I still feel kind of "stuck". I am starting to think that I need to develop some skills so that I don't have emotional vampires draining me. I need all the energy I have for myself.
Am I really out there on my theory?
