Well this is the second semester in my college life, I HATE it and would rather be doing something else but my parents say "go to college, you want to have a big house and a nice car." but frankly I don't, I don't be believe in having allot. I don't want to be the content of my wallet, or my home. I want people to remember me as a good guy that made it to the end of the race and not having to cheat or screw someone out of anything to get there. I love playing video games some that is the only way they got me in to college I am in for something called GSP game simulation and programming. I am so tired, for anyone that might read this and not know me I have insomnia and well can't sleep. Is there anyone out there that cares enough to say anything to help me? College sucks, it makes things fall apart and bad things worse. I want to died, but I don’t show it. I laugh with the guys but they don't know what I fell it’s just a show. I want to take the rest of the pain killer pm but it can't do it. There is side of me that is dark and spiteful and would love to kill others in my suicide, but there is that side that listens for the angels and looks for the better in a circumstance. The Devil wants to steal my soul away for the grace of God.
I struggle to hang on ever day
