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i am currently the most boring person in the world now...
 
maybe it's because i'm in the real world now...
 
everyday i go home... tired... uninspired... did i mention i kinda hate my trainor!?!?!?
 
oh yeah and nobody commented on my last post...
 
sorry if i sound negative...
 
maybe that's why i dont get comments on my posts cuz i sound so negative...
 
a friend once told me why i was so negative... i always complain... seldom smile... (especially at work)
 
i dunno...
 
paranoia strkes me again... and i hate it... especially if i'm alone...  i think about the world ending... death... sad thoughts...
 
and you know what sucks!?!?!?!
 
i dont have anyone to talk about this...
 
when i was in college i have a friend who understands all the paranoia i had... two of them actually... my bestfriend is married now and she's back in iloilo... and the other one is in cebu (another city and is very far)...
 
i dunno...
 
i just feel alone and sad...
 
i thought if i have work now i could forget my love life... who needs love when youre busy right?!!?!? i realize i was wrong about that...
 
i guess i'm longing for someone...
 
shit... here i am again... being so negative and hopelessly romantic...
 
oh well...
 
life's like that...
 
update: paperback just made me smile with post... ;-) thanks paper!!!


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  • quietone said on Sep 03, 2008....
    queenie, you have such a beautiful smile, you should use it all the time.  You would be surprised what a difference it makes.
  • skald said on Sep 03, 2008....
    Oh Queenie darling, you are never boring and you can simply not be boring, not in RL either. So many young people have those thoughts they are natural. Also about death and so. Nope, just like I have said before , you are a survivor. You may think you are negative and now you are thinking negative thoughts but your personality comes through and in reality you are positive. Keep on thinking positively. You are one of the nicest people here and if I search also in  other places you  will always be one of the nicest. Full of life and vigour.   
  • Mamie said on Sep 03, 2008....
    girl, the only thing I can say is this: the way out that worked for me was to GO DO SOMETHING FOR OTHER PEOPLE...at church, at a school, at a retirement home, at a hospital...I tried it all...and what I got was a smashing upside my head with GRATITUDE... and my world has never been the same. I am so lucky and so are you....so where you gonna go first? hmmmm? love ya, mamie
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 03, 2008....

    quitone... ;-)

    skald: skald: i was just tired from work that's all... anyway i just sing karaoke and i'm okay now... maybe i should put more music and dancing in my life. work is so stressful that it's making me grumpy. and yeah nobody commented on my last post... i thought it was a funny post but nobody commented... i sound like an attetntion seeker well sometimes i am... because nobody notices me in real life...

    mamie: thanks for giving that idea... i'll do that... ;-)

  • secretlife said on Sep 03, 2008....
    it's so hard being part of the working world, isn't it?
    you gotta force yourself to smile queenie-  smile and the world smiles with you....
     
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 03, 2008....
    secrelife: yeah it's hard.... i miss being a bum... ;-)
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Sep 03, 2008....

    I was here :) dearest queenie

    cannot focus at the moment ... will write much better next time... <333

    you are not boring! never was!

    <3333333

    ate papel

    p.s.

    i read your previous post but had no time/and no muse to say something worthy and intelligent...my brain is/was still slow


  • uniquely-ironic said on Sep 03, 2008....
    no, definately not boring.  As for not smiling much, that you can change ........ if you want to.  Be yourself and let those people you're attracted to and those who are attracted to you be your circle of friends.  I'm in that circle by the way.
  • Fallyn said on Sep 03, 2008....
    *HUGS* i'm sorry you're feeling so down.
  • petitepapillon said on Sep 03, 2008....
    *Huggies* You are not boring, queen. What you're feeling is something everyone feels numerous times in their lives. And you may be negative, but that doesn't mean that that is all that you are. If you were 100% negative, you wouldn't be working or trying to go to culinary school or wishing and hoping to go back home and see friends and family. Instead, you'd be hiding away.
     
    As for the smiling part, well, you can change that. I try to find something to smile and laugh at everyday, even if it has nothing to do with whatever I'm doing. Your smile doesn't have to be related to work; just think of something or someone that has always made you smile. Then, at some point, you'll be so used to smiling that it'll happen naturally. : )
  • RollingC said on Sep 03, 2008....
    You're not boring Queen...  don't be so hard on yourself.  It's ok to self-criticize but don't be too hard on yourself.  Sort of like setting goals that are beyond reach and then you're gloomy because you didn't reach those goals. 
    Life is a roller-coaster ride of emotions in case you haven't noticed.  You have to set your mind to enjoy the ride whether it's up or down.  When you're up you gotta realize that everything that goes up comes down and when you're down there's nowhere else to go but up. 
    Please remember that ok?

    Rc
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 04, 2008....

    paperback: thanks paper... ;-) and thanks for making that post! it really made me smile!!!

    uniquely: and i'm glad you are!!!

    fallyn: dont worry i'm kinda okay now... ;-)

    petite; yeah i think i need a new hobby to occupy my mind instead of work... i do feel negative sometimes and yesterday it was just one of those days.... tanks for dropping by... and yes you made me smile... ;-)

    rollingc: yes i will remember that... ;-)

  • hotaka said on Sep 06, 2008....
    queenP, it's alright to feel down about things and complain a bit when things don't go your way. But, and I am saying this as an optimist, some things are not as bad as people make them out to be. My wife can be a real complainer. It wears on me to hear her pessimism when there is nothing seriously wrong going on. It makes it hard for people around you to enjoy being around you when you complain a lot too. Just by saying, "I hate my trainer," already I can see you are not going to enjoy going to work. But maybe your trainer is not that bad and it's just you who is being so negative. Or maybe she/he is that bad and I just don't know.
     
    When my wife and I went through the hardest of times last year (before we were married) it was for me largely because her pessimism was overwhleming me. There was nothing nice to be said about anything. It made me feel that being with me was just so bad for her. Actually, she was just having a hard time at work and a seasonal dry skin condition that was irritating her. But it all came down on me.
     
    You really should try to be thankful or a little more positive. Life is much more enjoyable when you are not complaining about it always. Here's a hug and hopes for a happy Sunday.
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 06, 2008....
    hotaka: i'm positive well sometimes... but there's a time where i get so negative... but i'm over it now... here i am having a boring weekend. but i love it!!! and besides about you and your wife eventhough she was negative everything goes well right? so i think it is gonna be okay... ;-) and yeah you have a new baby now... so i think your life is full of positive energy... ;-)
  • hotaka said on Sep 06, 2008....
    Oh, yeah. Things basically go well. But she gets tired I think and then starts bickering about this and that and somehow as the guy it is all my fault or at least insinuated. Of course, I could just be too sensative. My mommy always said I was.
  • silverwhisper said on Sep 07, 2008....
    [walks up to qp & deftly applies a trout-smack]

    you aren't boring, sis. promise. :>

    ed
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 08, 2008....

    hotaka: well now that little boti is here i think he will bring the positive in you guys!!!!

    silver: thanks bro... ;-)

  • fallen-angel said on Sep 08, 2008....
    yow queen! c'mon gurl you're better than that!!
     
  • queenparanoia said on Sep 10, 2008....
    fallen: i'm okay now... ;-)

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