As i woke up today, for the first time i didnt cry.

i turned on my back and tony layed on my stomach, i started to think things over again.

7hrs diferance....i got to sleep and its only 5pm there. so....what is he doing after 5 pm? now im sure, well i believe that he aint doing anything but how about after a month or two? when he goes so sleep its 6-7am here, thats when i sleep still, and while he is sleeping i wake up to some things at home, go to classes and go back home as soon class finishes to be home at the time he wakes up. so while he is sleeping its early moring here and im in classes. but when i sleep its evening time for him and he can pretty much do what ever he wants too. Should i wake up at 3 am and 6 am now every moring, just to call him?

On one hand; i trust him and there is no need for it.

On the other hand; i do not trust men, period!

i dont really know what to do, maybe after some weeks ill start doing that. just to check on him. how do thry say it?? Trust is good but prove is better?? well smt like that, lol