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I'm trying to be honest about my thoughts and feelings on this blog, but it seems that I've already managed to offend someone. Most people wouldn't take it so bad, because writing polemically and inciting controversy gets them more page views.

But for a sensitive soul such as myself, it's a blow. It makes me feel like shutting down this blog and never showing my true feelings to anyone again. I'll just have to develop a thicker skin, I guess.

I do apologize if anyone who read my last post was offended by it. I didn't mean that I wouldn't ever become friends with people who do things I don't like to do, just that since I don't like doing those things, my statistical chances of being friends with them becomes infinitely smaller, since most likely I wouldn't be hanging out with them.

But okay, perhaps I am picky about friends, much like many women who are picky about who they want to date or marry. I asked one of my internet friends how come she never got married, since she was very beautiful and a wonderful woman. She told me that the people she liked never liked her, and vice versa, and she didn't want to settle for second best. Now she wonders if she should have. At least then she wouldn't be all alone in this world.

The other thing that constrains me is that saying, "bad company corrupts good character." I want to be friends with people who are successful and have good character. But for some reason, perhaps due to my own insecurities, I just don't seem to be able to befriend them, much less get their attention. I remember back in college, I tried to get to know a successful youth leader who had a string of accomplishments. He was great friends with another former pageant queen (they were similarly successful), and he told me nicely that he was overwhelmed with people wanting to get to know him and spend time with him before he moved, and was going to have to prioritize his time to meet with the most important people in his life. While I understood what he was saying, it still felt like rejection. Ironically, later I met him while shopping at a grocery store, two days before he was to leave and go overseas.

I'm more successful now than I was, and I realize that a lot of so-called successful people have often failed a lot in their business and personal lives, so it doesn't mean as much to me. But I would still like to have some good friends to talk to, to count on in a family emergency, etc. Hopefully someday I will get to that point.

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  • secretlife said on Sep 03, 2008....
    yes, it takes a thicker skin when you put yourself out here on the world wide web-
    but always remember that you have a right to your opinion, and you don't really know any of us in real life......take it all with a grain of salt, ok?
  • day2day said on Sep 03, 2008....
    hi badas,
    I don't think you've offended anyone. Certainly not me. I can understand your search for like minded friends.  I just hope i didn't offend you. Pleas don't stop writing. Ok? There are a lot of great people here in the SC world.  And, everyone likes to rant and rave from time to time. So, let's hear it from you.
    I want to hear some ranting and raving, and some venting and spewing.
    day
  • badasianmom said on Sep 03, 2008....
    Thanks, Secret and Day. Sometimes I wish I was more like my husband. I told him about offending someone and he said, "who cares?" He normally delights in loudly spouting his opinion for all to hear, and I'm the one who tries to restrain him, lol.

    Day, I wasn't offended, and I'm glad that you weren't offended. I'll try to rant more, however, I'm finding it to be a little depressing. Maybe I should rant about things like child abuse, and other injustices instead.
  • Expendable said on Sep 03, 2008....

    This place is for you, not others. A place where you can really say what's on your mind without the whole world knowing who you are. Let it out. And welcome to SoulCast.
    -ex

  • badasianmom said on Sep 03, 2008....
    Thanks, Ex. I appreciate it.
  • lionesss said on Sep 03, 2008....
    hello bam,,when i 1st came to this site i only had 1 friend,my best friend, pusscat... and i can say they welcomed me , by reading and wrting you get to know them and make friends,as already you have a good few reading your post,1 being myself,i enjoyed reading youre post so keep em coming yeah~~lionesss x
  • Hegemone said on Sep 03, 2008....
    Keep on posting!  As already portrayed...this is all anonymous...this is where you can let it all out and not worry about rammifications.  That's not to say we should all go on and be blatantly nasty to one another just because we don't know each other in RL...but it's a whole LOT easier to be honest and say what's on your mind here than it is to do so in real life.  I don't have a lot of comments on any of my blogs, and just a few views here and there...so I find myself wondering if I'm out of line or what...but at least I feel better and that's what's really important.  Don't worry about offending others, it was their choice to read your blog, nothing forced.  I already think you're an interesting person I wouldn't mind getting to know a little.  I hope to see more blogging from you!
  • badasianmom said on Sep 03, 2008....
    Thanks, Heg. It's a compliment to be called "interesting," lol.
  • Scaramouche said on Sep 05, 2008....
    I think you need to abandon this premise;

    "bad company corrupts good character"

    It's clearly rubbish.  Anyone with sufficiently good character would be incorruptible, and anyone corruptible clearly would have a weakness of character to begin with.  Hell, I'm living proof.  If my presence here has failed to turn the lot of you into horned demons, then I think your theory is busted.

    "I hope to merit heaven by making earth a hell."
    --Lord Byron
  • badasianmom said on Sep 06, 2008....
    Sorry, Scara, but it's entirely possible for someone of good character to hang out with the wrong crowd and become corrupted. It happens all the time in high school, for example. I've also seen it happen to family members.

    We all have character weaknesses, and if given the opportunity to act on them with others who have the same kind of vices, we most likely will. For example, gambling/greed, drugs/addictions, laziness, etc.

    So it's not just my "theory," it's reality.
  • Scaramouche said on Sep 06, 2008....
    But, but...  you just undercut your own argument.  "We all have character weaknesses..." - if that's the case, then was our character really all that good to begin with?  Are you saying that if Mother Theresa had suddenly begun hanging out in Calcutta slums she would have wound up a curried crackwhore?  But wait - she did, didn't she?  And she still managed to keep her holy hymen.  I think anyone sufficiently mush-headed to be swayed by the bad behavior of others deserves whatever comes to them, since clearly their character is lacking.
  • badasianmom said on Sep 08, 2008....
    As I said, we all have our weaknesses, and if we hang out with others who have the same kind of vices, then we will more easily become corrupted.

    Most likely Mother Theresa did not have the same character weaknesses or vices that the slum residents did, and was careful to help them without becoming drawn into their lifestyle. A non-drinker would most likely not be tempted by a group of drunks at a bar, or want to be near them. But someone who struggles with alcohol could easily become corrupted by hanging out with a group of alcoholics at the same bar.

    But back to my point. What I meant was that my values and goals automatically exclude certain types of people from being people I would hang out with as close friends, such as drug addicts, criminal types, or just plain lazy, unmotivated people. Associating with them would only drag me down, or worse. It would be a different story, however, if I chose to associate them because I wanted to help them get out of their lifestyle, which is what Mother Theresa did.

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