My brain is in constant over drive.
The tiniest thing can send me crazy just cos my brain has to over analyse every little thing, every text, every sentence, every gesture, every look.
And reven though i have a perfectly logical side of my brain that tells the other side to SHUT UP and to stop being stupid. The crazy side always wins and my mood turns.
Grrrr im so annoyed at myself for feeling like this, i'd being doing so well recently, blogs full of happines and excitement and prospects and now im on a slippery slope.
Im weighing myself, im dieting, im obsessing over how he feels, and most of all im scared.
Scared of where my mood is heading, scared of going to uni in this current mood, scared of meeting new people.
Basically my confidence is plummiting.
And all because one person asked me one question, that started a tiny little doubt!
Why can i see how stupid this is, and why can i highlight to myself that if im in this mood im only going to make things worse but i am still unable to climb out of this black hole. despite having all the gravity forcers, and ropes and other untensills needed...
Ooooooooft guys oooooooft
