I appreciate everything that you do for me, I really and truly do. Even though I might not act that way sometimes I really do think of you as a big part of my life. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a true friend.

I know that you are also very fond of me and I really do wish sometimes that I felt the same about you as you do about me. But just so you know I really do think the world of you and I care about you; I want the best for you and I love you as a friend.

I may act childish and bottle-up my feelings from time to time but please do not let that discourage you or affect you that’s just how I am its one of my many faults that I hope to better through time.

The reason I can’t really sleep is because I am in-love with someone who I really don’t think loves me. He says he does yet he doesn’t show it, he tends to put me on the back burner. I wanted you to know this so you know the reason why I am acting the way I do, it’s also the reason why I’ve been so depressed too.

I love him so damn much and it is killing me and I really don’t know what to do anymore. And I am confused and hurt about everything. I really don’t think I can handle it anymore. I really can’t.

Everyday it feels as if something inside is missing and no matter how hard I try I just can’t stop feeling empty.

I know by you reading this I might be hurting you as well and I honestly am sorry.

I wish I could do or say something that would make everything better but I can’t.

I can just say that I am sorry, I am sorry for being some dumb young girl who is still in-love with her first love. I am Sorry.

But I love him for the man that he almost is and the man that he can be, I love him just for the fact that even now when he is clueless about everything else in the world he smiles. And no matter if we are together or apart I don’t think I can stop loving him. And because of that…….

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO?

 


Forever your friend,

Tiffany