......of my creativity, wit, memory, etc., by my meds.
Still....it is better than the alternative.
I was in such despair before that I was blanking out then too....
It caused me great anxiety and despair..........
that I actually 'visualized' ....
( well never mind what I visualized )
I just couldn't overcome my feelings of anxiety, etc........
This is not an attempt at gaining anyone's pity, or advice, etc.
It is an explanation for how I am now.
I would rather be how I am now, than how I was...........
That is all!
