I suppose knowing oneself intimately is the mark of a wise and mature person.
In which case I'm far from being wise...middle-aged as I am, I feel I'm just getting to know myself now.
I still surprise myself with reactions which are unexpected.
Okay I know by now what are my priorities..my family, my career, my beliefs.
I know my likes and dislikes...sort of.
But I still find myself flying off the handle suddenly when I'd love to be cool and balanced specially when it comes to handling my kids and my students.
I wonder when and whether its possible to know and understand oneself completely.
I don't think its possible actually, maybe it is for someone like a monk who has spent his whole life meditating, but not for someone like me who spends her whole life dashing from one job to another...
sadsack posted on Aug 30, 2008
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day2day said on Aug 30, 2008....
hi sadsack,You have a very good point. I am middle aged too. I too feel like i'm just beginning to actually like myself. My youngest son (i have 3) just graduated from high school, this year. I feel like i just might have the time to get to know me better and love.Who are you, if you can't feel love? How old r ur kids?I still work full-time (which i blog about all the time) so, that keeps me busy. I can concentrate on my career for a while. I'm actually excited about my progress.But, i still have bouts of almost flying off the handle, too. Lord help anyone, who gets in my field of view, if that happens. Some people need a good tongue lashing. I hope i don't lose it too bad. Sorry, i can carry on and on.day -
sadsack said on Sep 01, 2008....
Hi day2day,
I'm glad I'm not the only middle aged soul who doesn't know herself properly yet. I think really that one only becomes mature psychologically after thirty! I was a pretty confused and naive person at that age.
I have two kids...a daughter aged 16 and a son aged 14. I also teach kids between 16 to 18...Higher Secondary stage.
I would love to try my hand at writing but I just never seem to get the time...
sadsack
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day2day said on Sep 01, 2008....
hi ss,Yeah, it's hard to find the time to write. I love to write. My trouble is:I can't seem to stay on the story line very well. I started one story prett good and then i started a different one, and now i'm stumped about where to take the stories. My ADD kicking in again, i guess.I lose interest too fast, and, of course, i go on to other things. I guess i'm just not ready to didicate time to it. Time is charging full speed ahead of me. But, i really like it here in the SC world.day -
sadsack said on Sep 03, 2008....
Hey day,
Apart from lack of time, my problem is that I have so many story ideas whirling around inside of me, I don't know which to start on. Hopefully one day, not too far away, I'll sit down and just start...