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My life is really weighing heavy on my mind today.  Some days I wake up looking for one good reason to get out of bed.  I have things I'm supposed to get done today, and I can't find it in me to even care.  What difference does it make?  I'll get them done, and life will still be crappy. 
 
Apathy and hopelessness are my companions.  Some days are brighter, and I can muster up a little tepid enthusiasm.  But it can change in the blink of an eye, and once again the dark hole opens up and I fall in.  Lately there have been far more bad days than good.
 
Sorry to sound so pitiful.  I just needed somewhere to put some of these feelings today.
 
 


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  • uniquely-ironic said on Aug 28, 2008....
    It's a real irony that life hands us these days.  Prior to Bill getting his PMS I was having a few very similar days.  Same routine, same chores, no real goal or joy.
     
    Maybe I haven't made peace with these type of days, but when presented with them I usually end up finding some project to occupy my mind.
  • evil_twin said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Mimi, I know how you feel unfortunately. I was right where you are just a few weeks ago. And I didn't think I'd ever feel better. But I do now. And I hope you will too. Hang in there. And I'm sorry you're feeling so blue and apathetic.....

    -evil_twin LA
  • kruuyai said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Awww Mimi... hang in there.  What you need is a good, old fashioned lopeared bunny wabbit!  {{{{{{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
  • gingersoul said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Mimi....remember ....Mamie, Kruu and I have we have that trip to make to come and pick you up........
     
    So get ready, pack your stuff and wait for us outside.
     
    Hope you will feel out of this blue land very soon... {{hugs}}
  • kruuyai said on Aug 28, 2008....
    gingerpeachsoup has a point, there, Mimi.... how can you possibly feel blue with so much to look forward to?   
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Aug 28, 2008....
    The sun hides behind the clouds. 

    It may seem that the clouds stretch on forever, but it can never lasts due to the winds. 

    Just hang on to your umbrella.  Better look like Mary Poppins than drenched from head to foot, no?  :)
  • beyondtheveil said on Aug 28, 2008....
    mimi- I've been staring at this comment block for quite a while and still don't know what to say. I've had a few of these days lately myself. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning, so I waited until I had to pee. While there I brushed teeth and shaved. That made me want coffee. I waited for ginger, kruu, and mamie to pick me up but they didn't, so I made a turkey pastrami, swiss cheese, avocado, and olive sandwich. That made me want to get on soulcast, and here I am.

    And like I said, I still don't know what to say.
  • truthsayer said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Oh MissMimi.  I wish I was there with you, to wash B's cherries and pit them for you...so that you could back me a cherry pie!  Beyond can bring the coffee.  can someone else please bring the icecream?  I can bring all the Love that I have in my bottomless heart. 
     
    I found that out you know.  That it truly is bottomless.  Yours is too, but right now, it just needs to be filled...you know?  Can I brush the red curls out of your face and sing a song...a lullaby perhaps?  Not so that you will sleep, but so that you will feel His Love...the Love that makes all things possible.  You know Him.  You knew Him the day you danced in your yellow dress!  And He's still right there with you...only you are not perceiving Him right now...but like Job, is on your left side...that is the side that is hidden for a time. 
     
    Not that He is hiding...but...what if He was?  Can you seek Him today sweet MissMimi?  Can you seek Him hidden within my words as I cry and laugh with you.  I am you know.  He is like that.  He makes me cry and laugh at the same time...especially when He is really loving me, or loving someone through me.  Did I help MissMimi?  Did Beyond help?  Did Grape, Unique, Ginger, Kruuyai, and ET help?  Because we all love you.  Most of us really do want to help each other in anyway that we can.
     
    We all have these feelings at one time or another...and some of us have had them a lot.  Let us be here for you whenever we can, ok?  You know that you have shared your mightly love with us many times over. 
     
    Now, about that pie, and coffee.  : )  I would like to ask if Gingersoul could bring me a separate little container of Gelato...if she is the one to bring the "icecream".  I absolutely love that stuff!
     
    Look up MM.  I have to too.
     
    Love, love, love & blessings,
     
     
  • truthsayer said on Aug 28, 2008....
    I had a spontaneous, "Submit comment" event...whoops...oh well...you know who I am!  T : )
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Aug 28, 2008....


    ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    Dear MissyMims,

    I am sorry you are going through this.

    I am still finding my way back to life, and I feel awkward to say the least :( ...  commenting around is like entering a room full of people and I have to say something very personal to a dear friend - aloud... it is  daunting, frightening

    I wanted to comment in your last blog but before I could compose a decent comment, it disappeared.  It was a beautiful post, written by a beautiful person full of admirable qualities...

    I see you, I love the person who is you. 

    I wish, I could say something that will magically make the feeling you now have to go away! <3

    The only thing I could say is, like all the dear souls before me has already said, hold on, hang in there...

    <3

    joanna


  • sweetsoul said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Mimi...so you didn't feel like getting up out of bed today. Well then...let me join you *I say as I lay down beside you*. We can spend the day talking and laughing.
     
    (((Mimi)))
  • AlwaysThinking said on Aug 28, 2008....
    positive energy is better then negative energy...reward yourself in thinking about the plus's in your life...

    enjoy a nice "beverage" as well....


  • Mamie said on Aug 28, 2008....
    hiya Meems! (SMILING LOUDLY SO AS TO BE MILDLY ANNOYING)
    Are you feeling somewhat better? I surely hope so...ya know, I did not feel so swift this morning, but I had promised some great guys that I know that I would meet some people for them...and guess what? You cannot help others with out helping yourself. If you want to feel better, give more of YOURSELF to somebody...doesn't have to be an everlasting commitment...
     
    you can just drive on over to a clothing drive and offer to fold clothes...or go to soup kitchen and offer to hand out the bread and butter. I SWEAR I DID THIS and more, back in the early days of depression when I was kinda scared to be alone...and it worked Mimi , I felt better...no I did not make life long friends, that wasn't the point, it was never between me and them. it was afterall, between me and God.
    ps I have always wanted to be one of those people who volunteers to hold newborns at the hospitals....mine does not have that program, does yours? could there be any thing as fun? ok, puppies, but I'm just sayin!! love ya! mamie
  • rollyramos said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Hi! missmimi,
              We all know that a lot of people are feeling the same way as you are, its not your monopoly no matter what race, creed, color, background, social standing, bank accounts, that we have, its our inner self that is suffering" THE SOUL" why? because it cannot feed or serve its purpose, read the Bible Ecclesiastes 12:13, this verse is the ultimate purpose of the creator, the goal, the very essence of the existence of mankind, the very purpose we are designed for, that's our destiny and unless we fulfill these, then there will be feeling of insufficiency as a person, as a creation, we are not in this world to live up to anybodies expectation that's including ourselves.
                
  • petitepapillon said on Aug 28, 2008....
    Aww MissMimi, you do not sound pitiful. A lot of us feel or have felt the same way. In fact, you and I are in the same boat.
     
    I hope you feel better soon.
  • polarheart said on Aug 28, 2008....
    (((((((((((((Meems))))))))))))))
  • MindfulOne said on Aug 28, 2008....

    I have a corkscrew -- want it? Or is your bottle of w/whine a twist off? :P

    You can call you know, I'll talk to you about spiders and snakes and other ickiness.

    :heart:

  • CreativeWoman said on Aug 28, 2008....
    I hope you are feeling better, Mimi.  I think when we are able to share a little bit of the downs in life, it can lift us up a little.  It helps to know that the rest of us really do care.  You know we really do, right?  :-)

    Something that has helped me lately is to be sure that I say positive things to myself.  It sounds trite, but it really does work to lift you up from the inside out.

    (((((((((((Hang in there, Mimi.))))))))))

    CW
  • MissMimi said on Aug 29, 2008....
    uni -- that's usually what I try to do too.  It's the getting up and moving that's the hard part.
     
    Kyle -- I'm so glad your feeling better, and things look brighter.  It's a hard thing to go through, I know.
     
    kruu -- thanks for the lop-eared hug.  :)  I'm happy to see you posting again.
     
    gingerpeach -- LOL  I'll be ready.  Your post about meeting you-know-who really made me smile.
     
    GrapeApe -- Mary Poppins.  Practically pefect in every way.  You had me smiling with your post about meeting you-know-who.  It is just so wonderful and romantic.
     
    beyond -- One thing leads to another, doesn't it?  I really didn't want to get up today, but I did and I ended up finishing two small quilts.
     
    truth -- funny you should mention cherries.  I just cooked a batch of cherry pie filling this evening.  :)  Thank you for your wise words.
     
    Paper -- You are so sweet.  Thank you for what you said.  (Yeah, that post did sort of disappear quickly.  Sometimes I get a little squirmy when I think I've revealed too much.  Kinda like I feel about this post.)  {{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}}}}
     
    ss -- Now that would be a wonderful time -- a bed party!  (Now stop that!  LOL  You know what I mean...  But then again... ;) )
     
    Always Thinking -- sometimes I lose sight of the pluses in my life, but I feel better now.  Thanks!  :)
     
    Mamie -- (MILDLY ANNOYING?  YOU?  : D )  That is why your brilliant idea came along at just the right time for me. 
     
    rollyramos -- Welcome, and thank you for the Bible verse.  :)
     
    petite -- Aww, thank you, little butterfly.  I hope you feel better too.
     
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{polarcakes}}}}}}}}}}}}}  How are you, sweetpea?
     
    MO --  mmm snakes...  that ought to perk me right up...  :heart: right back at ya.
     
    CDub -- positive affirmations?  Are there ones that work better for you than others?  I used to put post it notes everywhere with affirmations.  :)
     
    Well, thank you all for stopping by and helping me feel better.  I do.  I do get squirmy about posts like this, but by the time I got around to getting squirmy about it, there were so many nice comments that well, it didn't seem very gracious to you all to delete it.
  • RollingC said on Aug 29, 2008....

    MissMimi I feel for you.  My days as of late have been pretty much the same although I fight it as best as I can.  Sometimes lately I've been giving in and just stay in bed sleeping all day. 
    I'm mustering myself to do better though. My main problem is budget shortage as paying the house Ins. has taken all the reserves that I had.  Even though I know I'll get it back it's a process of saving/pinching pennies lately. 
    However, I'm determined not to give up and keep busy.  Finish fixing/arranging up the house.   Get a second part-time job. Whatever really and somewhere in there I squeeze Him that makes me strong enough to perservere.  Without His help I could not handle the situation in a good way.

    Rc

  • Battycat said on Aug 29, 2008....

    Oh i've had many days like that, hope you feel better soon ((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

  • woman said on Aug 29, 2008....
    We all know these times and understand the dark hole you may feel you are in. The sun will come out again and you will find some joy in your life. It helps me to start a new project of some kind when I am in this place. Seems impossible to get going on it but it always helps. Maybe a new WILD quilt...
  • Mamie said on Aug 29, 2008....
    thank Mindful one is snarky isn't she?  I LOVE THAT! Tell her hi from me...a twist off whine....bwahahaha!!
    How about you and your little projects yesterday!!!!! I can imagine how great you felt after that accomplishment! See...you cannot help another without....blah blah, blah...when did I become a preacher? email me! xo, M
  • wombat said on Aug 29, 2008....
    You don't sound pitiful, just human....we all have these days I imagine.  I know it's hard sometimes just to keep your chin up and believe things will get better--but they usually do, all on their own somehow.  But here's a smile and a hug for now....
     
    {{{{{wombie}}}}}}
  • queenparanoia said on Aug 29, 2008....
    remember what i blog about. faith and hope go arm and arm... so have faith in you mimikins and hope for the best... because it is yet to come... ;-)
  • seanGAYrenaud said on Aug 29, 2008....
    You could use me in your life,but i'm a gay blade now.. My ALT is FRIT77
  • sony said on Aug 29, 2008....

    Ahhh

    This is just a moment in time. Without the bad times the good times would not be so special. Cheer up!

  • backspace said on Aug 29, 2008....
    We both have feelings like this!? I NEED A DRINK!
  • hugecock! said on Aug 29, 2008....
    make apathy a friend
  • overlord said on Aug 29, 2008....
    GET OVER IT!
  • crybabylu said on Aug 30, 2008....
    I feel that way myself sometimes.  {{{  Hugs! }}}
  • rain4u said on Aug 31, 2008....

    why don't you take a walk to freshen up? may be you just need some air to breathe. Try to relax and feel the nature.........
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    I don't have hope for myself, But I belive you can make it for some reason. I don't know you or why you fell this way but know I am pulling for you
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    I don't have hope for myself, But I belive you can make it for some reason. I don't know you or why you fell this way but know I am pulling for you
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    I don't have hope for myself, But I belive you can make it for some reason. I don't know you or why you fell this way but know I am pulling for you
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    I don't have hope for myself, But I belive you can make it for some reason. I don't know you or why you fell this way but know I am pulling for you
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    I dont know you or why you fell this way but some thing in me tells me to belive in you, so now I am pulling for you
  • Spiral said on Sep 04, 2008....
    sorry computer acted up an multipost
  • silverwhisper said on Sep 05, 2008....
    [walks up to mimi & trout-smacks her.]

    did that help at all? :D

    ed

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