Life remains complicated.  Sometimes I wish I had never married this man I am with.  I was so young and blinded by love.  I feel like I should have been more mature before making such a huge decision.  Now I've been married for years and have a child, but I am constantly thinking about another man.  A man who I was attracted to even before i met my husband.  I can't even get in touch with that man, but I miss him.  I wish I could speak to him, but I wonder if that is a bad step to make.  It could lead to something, and do I really want that?  Life is not that bad, but as always, I tend to overexaggerate everything.  I probably am a little histrionic, but I can't help it.  I need lots of love and attention.  That's just the way I am. 

 

Lately, I am thinking about that other man so often.  I need to find a way to reconnect with my husband.  I really do.