A little more than 6 months ago I was caught breaking one of the rules I had signed my name to that I would abide by. I didn't. I knew it was wrong but the situation I found myself in, I was not strong enough to overcome. As a result the past six months of my life, of our life, has been spent cut off from everything and everyone.
It is only because I have done my pennance, I have made amends with Him, with myself, that I am now able to write again. I am now able to speak again, I am now able to share my experiences again.
I will say that I will never again, ever, get to the point where I break a rule again, a rule that I am able to so easily control and abide by.
Because I did, I have spent the past 6 months being used and humiliated in front of friends, in front of strangers, and in ways that are difficult to describe. I have been displayed, objectified, and pushed beyond any limits I thought I had.
I am proud to say that I was able to overcome my fears, to accept my punishment, to deal with my own shortcomings, and that He is proud of His slut, His whore.
I feel good about myself, about my ability to please Him, about all I have learned. I look forward to being able to write again about my service, about my kink, about my nastiness.
