i would love nothing better than to be able to write a post filled with wonderful sensual experiences shared with my Master. Unfortunately, things are still on hold, and i'm here patiently and at times not-so-patiently waiting. But i also know that He is waiting too, and exhausted mentally and physically from His hectic schedule.
Master and i chatted for a while the other night, and i understand now what i maybe didn't before. i thought He was super busy and enjoying His life, and not giving me a second thought. In reality, He is tense, stressed out, and exhausted. my heart went out to Him. i know there is nothing i can do to lessen His workload, but i know what i can do. And that is, not add to His stress. i am trying to be as upbeat and positive and supportive as i can.
A good friend related that when things are busy and stressful, it is sometimes hard to drop one's "business personna." i would take Master's words as distant and aloof, and feel hurt. Another way of looking at it might be that He is so preoccupied and distracted by work stress, that He is having trouble relaxing. So, thank you, my friend for the new perspective.
Who knows when W/we will get back to relating to each other as Master and sub? i miss Him very much. The craving to serve is difficult to deal with at times. i long to be called His "babypet" and His slut once again. i believe that W/we will be close again. It's just a matter of time.
