Age: 31
Race: Caucasian
Gender: Male
Location: USA
Religion: Witch
Occupation: Artist
Children: Daughter, Katie - Age 2
For now - let me talk about my religion. Eleven years ago, I began on this path. I was initiated into an Eclectic Wiccan coven. After becoming disenchanted with such, I split away from my associations - I became a solitary Wiccan. Over the years, my path has evolved - I no longer consider myself to be 'Wiccan', but an eclectic Witch whose spiritual and religious borrowings draw upon contributions from Ceremonial Magic, Shamnism, Scientology, Kabbalah and Folk Magick.
My personal gnosis:
I am going to attempt to describe what I believe - my 'religion', as it were. Although none of this will likely come out the way I would prefer - what the hell:
I will try to wrangle together the following themes of my practice/beliefs in an interweaving and sensible way:
Shamanism
Scientology/Dianetics
Kabbalah/Abrahamic Religion
Deities
Magick
Shamanism -
For me - this will be the simplest one to explain. I believe that
Shamnism, as it relates to my path, is crucial.
Traversing/exploring/interacting with Otherworldly
spirits/landscapes/beings for the betterment of myself, beings outside
of myself and my community is very important to me - at least
theoretically. I confess that I am 'new' to it, so it's not like I can
speak from experience. That being said, however, I believe that the
knowledge of the Three Worlds (Upperworld, Middle World, Underworld)
fits well into my beliefs and general pervasive 'Cosmic Vision'.
I believe that the world/worlds (both the astral "Otherworlds" and the physical Cosmos) were created in a sudden event - not necessarily a 'Big Bang', but a sudden Emergence Unto Being. I feel that the notion of Ain Soph Aur contracting to a point to begin the creation process is very much in-tune with what I believe - but that will be further discussed in the Kabbalah section. So - I believe that the Otherworlds were created first and all of their beings - all around the same time. Then, after this, I believe that our known physical Cosmos was created - and evolution, in its many forms, followed suit. I believe that there is one 'Great Spirit' - the Divine Spirit - the Spirit which animates all and which therefore interconnects all beings, both of this and the Otherworlds. I believe that this Spirit birthed, of itself, many other manifestations - and that will be included in the section on Deities. Animal spirits came first in the Spirit Worlds...and they were brought to the Manifest World in flesh and blood...again, I will talk about this later.
I believe that the world/worlds (both the astral "Otherworlds" and the physical Cosmos) were created in a sudden event - not necessarily a 'Big Bang', but a sudden Emergence Unto Being. I feel that the notion of Ain Soph Aur contracting to a point to begin the creation process is very much in-tune with what I believe - but that will be further discussed in the Kabbalah section. So - I believe that the Otherworlds were created first and all of their beings - all around the same time. Then, after this, I believe that our known physical Cosmos was created - and evolution, in its many forms, followed suit. I believe that there is one 'Great Spirit' - the Divine Spirit - the Spirit which animates all and which therefore interconnects all beings, both of this and the Otherworlds. I believe that this Spirit birthed, of itself, many other manifestations - and that will be included in the section on Deities. Animal spirits came first in the Spirit Worlds...and they were brought to the Manifest World in flesh and blood...again, I will talk about this later.
Scientology/Dianetics
- I believe that L. Ron Hubbard was a prophet, but I also believe that
he was mentally ill. I believe that his visions were obscured by his
illness...and so, though much was literal and real, it was also
distorted and thus much of what is legitimate is questionable.
However, I believe that he had vision of another race and time - from a
different world than our own. I believe that it's quite possible that
his concept of the Thetan, the Divine Spirit, is legit. I believe that
many of us could be incarnations of deceased extraterrestrial beings.
I believe that the tyranny of Xenu was very real, but I don't necessarily believe that Xenu's holocaust occurred here on Earth. I believe that many of his approaches to mental health were valid, but many were also flawed. I believe that we probably have much more to learn about the human mind - and that by uncovering past and hidden subconscious 'engrams', or painful/traumatic events of our pasts, we can learn to heal. I believe that this approach must be a delicate one, however, and that there is not always a 'think yourself better' answer to many mental illnesses. Psychosomatic ills, yes - but there are others which cannot be mended with a bandaid. But - I agree with much of the process of Dianetic therapy and the work on the self to approach the level of Clear and beyond. I believe that it's similar to ascension and enlightenment.
The function of the E-Meter, the Dianetic therapy 'lie-detector' device which spots engrams when certain triggers are activated, is (to me) quite valid. I believe that there are most definitely subtleties in our electromagnetic fields which ebb and flow and wax and wane with any given stimulation or deprivation. There is, therefore, no reason that the E-Meter would not be a valid and useful tool with which to explore the hidden traumas of the Reactive Mind. I think that there is great potential in Dianetics, but that the flawed Church of Scientology has corrupted this potential. This is why I fully support such break-away groups as the Freezone Scientologists who actively seek to cultivate the valid teachings of Hubbard instead of perpetuate the profit to be gained by the establishment.
Just to add, I believe that, through Shamanic journey and evocation, it is possible to contact the spirits of extraterrestrial beings.
I believe that the tyranny of Xenu was very real, but I don't necessarily believe that Xenu's holocaust occurred here on Earth. I believe that many of his approaches to mental health were valid, but many were also flawed. I believe that we probably have much more to learn about the human mind - and that by uncovering past and hidden subconscious 'engrams', or painful/traumatic events of our pasts, we can learn to heal. I believe that this approach must be a delicate one, however, and that there is not always a 'think yourself better' answer to many mental illnesses. Psychosomatic ills, yes - but there are others which cannot be mended with a bandaid. But - I agree with much of the process of Dianetic therapy and the work on the self to approach the level of Clear and beyond. I believe that it's similar to ascension and enlightenment.
The function of the E-Meter, the Dianetic therapy 'lie-detector' device which spots engrams when certain triggers are activated, is (to me) quite valid. I believe that there are most definitely subtleties in our electromagnetic fields which ebb and flow and wax and wane with any given stimulation or deprivation. There is, therefore, no reason that the E-Meter would not be a valid and useful tool with which to explore the hidden traumas of the Reactive Mind. I think that there is great potential in Dianetics, but that the flawed Church of Scientology has corrupted this potential. This is why I fully support such break-away groups as the Freezone Scientologists who actively seek to cultivate the valid teachings of Hubbard instead of perpetuate the profit to be gained by the establishment.
Just to add, I believe that, through Shamanic journey and evocation, it is possible to contact the spirits of extraterrestrial beings.
Kabbalah/Abrahamic Religion
- Firstly, I don't believe in the 'Christian God'. I believe in the
Divine - the All - this is, essentially, the Christian God. It is an
all-pervasive life force that exists and animates everything in our
world and the Otherworlds. I believe that the ancient world was aware
of this force - but to each indigenous race and culture, it was
embodied by their own ideas of 'a Supreme Being' - so to the Jews, it
became 'God' - and so on and so forth. How 'God' came to be is not of
my knowledge - it always was?...who knows. But the Otherworlds and
this world - came into being from Ain Soph Aur. The Veils make sense
to me - the Tree of Life - is but one way of viewing the process of
Creation. It is but one way of viewing the interconnectedness of all
things which share Spirit - so to me, it is vastly beyond 'a Jewish
mystical tradition'. It is beyond language, location or definition.
It is a reality map - a way of taking apart the unknowable and shaping
it into a form which we can only hope to understand.
The 'unknowable', in this case, is Spirit itself. To me - the Kabbalah is a glimpse into the mysteries of Creation and Spirit - and it just so happened that it was perfected by the Jews - and to me, this is of little significance. The location isn't as important as the idea. The language of the Hebrews - this is a powerful language. Just as we know that even 'make-believe' characters can become egregores, thought-forms with enough belief from enough people - so, too, can the 'magick' of the Hebrews. I believe that the Jewish mystics of old tapped into something truly Divine - truly Otherworldly. Now, to say that there were such things as Jewish Shamans would be a bit much, but it's not beyond belief . Many mystics were said to have gone into deep trance states to return with new knowledge where Kabbalistic concepts are concerned. So there is definitely something 'there'.
To me - the Hebrew language is an ancient and powerful magickal tongue in and of itself - and there is power in the written and spoken word - therefore there is power in the Hebrew language - power in the Bible - power in the faith of the followers of Judaism and Christianity. I do not believe that Jesus Christ was the son of 'God' as we are ALL sons and daughters of 'God' - just as we are brothers and sisters to every creature which draws breath. However, I believe that Christ was a prophet and mystic and a great teacher. There is power in his teachings - power in his spirit, which has, no doubt, ascended and functions much like that of an Ascended Master or a demigod. Just as many of the spirits of the Saints have done, as well.
On this note, it brings me to the concept of angels and demons - Heaven and Hell. To me, Heaven is the Upperworld and Hell is the Underworld. Angels, in my analysis of things, are a 'race' of Upperworldly beings whose function as a collective whole may be something along the lines of 'hitmen' or servants - emissaries or messengers. I believe that they serve not just ONE god, but whichever god they may so choose - if they do so choose. I believe that they could well be the messengers of ANY god from ANY pantheon - as they are merely beings who assist when they choose - and I'm certain that they receive some form of 'payment' or compensation from the god/gods whom they serve. I also believe that not ALL angels are servants. I believe that there are free agents and also rogues who do as they will. These may be the so-called 'fallen angels'. I don't believe that they are limited to only the Upperworld, as well.
Demons, in my belief, are more than can be limited to just those demons of Christian (etc.) mythology. I believe that many beings have been erroneously labeled 'demons' when they may be altogether something else - but were encountered by those who were too ignorant to know the difference. That being said, I do believe in the Goetic Demons and their imps and minions. I believe that there is a hierarchy and perhaps these beings also serve Underworldly gods as angels serve Upperworldly gods. This isn't to say that this is their sole function as I'm certain it is not. However, I believe that they may opt to do this if it benefits them or if it is something that they see fit to do. I don't believe that they are evil - at least not all. I believe that their motivations are different from many Otherwordly beings and that they have more free will, perhaps, than most do. Or rather they follow a different set of 'rules', if they follow any at all. I do believe that they may be more restricted in where they are allowed to travel than other beings. I believe that it's quite possible for some angels to have the power to control certain demons as well as some gods/beings possessing this power, as well - that's also to say that I believe that some demons are quite capable of trumping certain angels/beings and so on. I believe that we cannot know many of their motivations nor their strengths and weaknesses. I believe that I don't really want to unless it serves a purpose for me to do so.
Again, through Shamanic journey, I believe that one can bring himself into contact and conversation with any of these beings - although that's not an arrogant statement, but a theoretical one. This is also true, in my belief, if one wished to meet the spirits of the Saints of the Christ. This is just my belief.
The 'unknowable', in this case, is Spirit itself. To me - the Kabbalah is a glimpse into the mysteries of Creation and Spirit - and it just so happened that it was perfected by the Jews - and to me, this is of little significance. The location isn't as important as the idea. The language of the Hebrews - this is a powerful language. Just as we know that even 'make-believe' characters can become egregores, thought-forms with enough belief from enough people - so, too, can the 'magick' of the Hebrews. I believe that the Jewish mystics of old tapped into something truly Divine - truly Otherworldly. Now, to say that there were such things as Jewish Shamans would be a bit much, but it's not beyond belief . Many mystics were said to have gone into deep trance states to return with new knowledge where Kabbalistic concepts are concerned. So there is definitely something 'there'.
To me - the Hebrew language is an ancient and powerful magickal tongue in and of itself - and there is power in the written and spoken word - therefore there is power in the Hebrew language - power in the Bible - power in the faith of the followers of Judaism and Christianity. I do not believe that Jesus Christ was the son of 'God' as we are ALL sons and daughters of 'God' - just as we are brothers and sisters to every creature which draws breath. However, I believe that Christ was a prophet and mystic and a great teacher. There is power in his teachings - power in his spirit, which has, no doubt, ascended and functions much like that of an Ascended Master or a demigod. Just as many of the spirits of the Saints have done, as well.
On this note, it brings me to the concept of angels and demons - Heaven and Hell. To me, Heaven is the Upperworld and Hell is the Underworld. Angels, in my analysis of things, are a 'race' of Upperworldly beings whose function as a collective whole may be something along the lines of 'hitmen' or servants - emissaries or messengers. I believe that they serve not just ONE god, but whichever god they may so choose - if they do so choose. I believe that they could well be the messengers of ANY god from ANY pantheon - as they are merely beings who assist when they choose - and I'm certain that they receive some form of 'payment' or compensation from the god/gods whom they serve. I also believe that not ALL angels are servants. I believe that there are free agents and also rogues who do as they will. These may be the so-called 'fallen angels'. I don't believe that they are limited to only the Upperworld, as well.
Demons, in my belief, are more than can be limited to just those demons of Christian (etc.) mythology. I believe that many beings have been erroneously labeled 'demons' when they may be altogether something else - but were encountered by those who were too ignorant to know the difference. That being said, I do believe in the Goetic Demons and their imps and minions. I believe that there is a hierarchy and perhaps these beings also serve Underworldly gods as angels serve Upperworldly gods. This isn't to say that this is their sole function as I'm certain it is not. However, I believe that they may opt to do this if it benefits them or if it is something that they see fit to do. I don't believe that they are evil - at least not all. I believe that their motivations are different from many Otherwordly beings and that they have more free will, perhaps, than most do. Or rather they follow a different set of 'rules', if they follow any at all. I do believe that they may be more restricted in where they are allowed to travel than other beings. I believe that it's quite possible for some angels to have the power to control certain demons as well as some gods/beings possessing this power, as well - that's also to say that I believe that some demons are quite capable of trumping certain angels/beings and so on. I believe that we cannot know many of their motivations nor their strengths and weaknesses. I believe that I don't really want to unless it serves a purpose for me to do so.
Again, through Shamanic journey, I believe that one can bring himself into contact and conversation with any of these beings - although that's not an arrogant statement, but a theoretical one. This is also true, in my belief, if one wished to meet the spirits of the Saints of the Christ. This is just my belief.
Deities - As mentioned before - I believe that everything is interconnected, but that's not to say that I believe that one deity is not its own being and merely a 'cell' in Divine body. I believe that every deity has its own personality, traits, interests and motivations - and is a free-standing and functioning being in its own right. However, I also believe that some are manifestations of a single deity - and operate as pieces of a larger whole.
One such being, in this example, is the goddess figure of Durga. This is my newly-found (she called to me) patron goddess. What I believe is that she is a part of a collective feminine energy known as Devi - and from Devi also manifests Parvati, Kali, Lakshmi, etc. I do not believe that this collective feminine, Devi, is 'the goddess'...but rather one of many goddesses to be found in the Otherworlds. I believe that Devi is a single entity, but that that she 'appears' as one of numerous goddesses such as Durga and the aforementioned. I believe that there could be many goddesses/gods from many cultures who also manifest in this way - and that some of the previously believed 'separate' goddesses/gods are manifestations of some unnamed larger entity. If that makes sense. However...not all goddesses/gods are manifestations of a large generic gendered energy. As I mentioned before, many are individual beings with their own motivations and personalities. I simply believe that they all, just as we do, share a common animating 'force' - not a common mind or common motivation.
I also believe that we are created in the likeness of beings which exist in the Otherworlds - as I believe that the Otheworlds came first in the Creation process. So whether these beings are gods or merely something else - is a mystery. WHY we were created is another question that I really don't know the answer to. In the greater picture - it may be that we were created and this world was created in order to provide some means for Spirit to experience something which could only be experienced through living flesh. Who knows, really. But I believe that every plant and insect and stone and creature in THIS world has a mirror image in the Otherworlds - a perfected image, but not a perfect being. I don't believe that there is any perfect being.
Magick - As I have spoken of the 'common animating force' in the Universe (both of this and the Otherworlds), I believe that this force is energy - incapable of being created nor destroyed - all-pervasive and vast - a mere glimpse of the unknowable. I believe that our minds are much like computers - delicate equipment capable of tapping into this force and manipulating it - our own Divine Processors, as it were. 'Magick' is the result of harnessing this energy and manipulating it into manifestation of the desired outcome. I believe that magick is intended to be used by us - and I believe that we have lost sight of this in our evolution and our civilized pursuit of earthly concerns. As the great anti-Sephirah of Da'ath carries with it the lesson of not mistaking Knowledge for Wisdom, so I believe that we should heed this lesson - our knowledge, our strive for intellectual perfection, scientific and social advancement, has led us to believe that the answers lie in our own hands and our own hands alone. Knowledge can bring with it arrogance, and with arrogance comes blindness - and so we stumble into the Abyss.



