For the past 2 1/2 weeks I've been following the South Beach Diet. I've tried to use a less regimented change in diet to lose a few pounds but I'm an all or nothing personality when it comes to food. The problem being that I have no impulse control and easily fall into temptation in the forms of chocolate, pizza, mexican, ........... it goes on and on.
So, in an attempt to lose some weight and not let down my coworkers on this biggest loser contest I buckled down for the diet. I hate the first two weeks. It's always the hardest. I don't always manage to follow the details either. (non-fat milk becomes 2% etc.) I hate having to turn down chips and other glorious junk food.
I think it's working. I feel like I've lost some weight. I think my clothes are fitting a little bit looser. But I'm not really sure I've lost as much as I should have. It's like I'm at a sticking point early on in the diet. That point is well shy of my projected ideal weight.
So where does the scale come in? Lemme tell you. I know you're not supposed to step on the scale every day, but I'm compulsive. I also know that if the scale goes back up that I'll feel bad enough to work harder on saying no to goodies or watch my portions better. So for the past couple of weeks the scale has been messing with my head.
I saw small amounts dropping off the first few days. Then, on a day that I was particularly bad and had one of the "avoid these foods" items I went down a larger amount than usual. Huh?!
I didn't assume that I could get away with my little slip again. I kept to the diet and the next day I had gained more than I had lost the day before. Huh?!!
I'm technically off the strict first stage that's designed to help reset your insulin and help you decrease cravings. I am "allowed" to add in small amounts of those things that I was supposed to avoid the first two weeks. I'm too paranoid to do it.
The scale has been on a mission to destroy my confidence in the diet. Up one day, down the other, some days it stays the same. It has left me with the feeling that if I go back to my usual eating habits I might implode. On days I feel thinner it says I'm heavier, on days I feel like I may have put on a pound or two it says I've gone down 3. I'm so confused.
The only good thing about this diet is that I intellectually know that I'm eating healthier. Whether or not my body wants to cooperate is another matter. The scale and I are gonna have a "comin' to Jesus" soon if it doesn't start toeing the line!!!
