This is the one year anniversary of my diabetes diagnosis. My lifestyle has certainly changed since then.
I've learned to live with less carbs and to pay attention to my body better. I've been rocked by the loss of a toe and the depression that followed. I won't say it's been easy, but it has put me on a path I wouldn't have been on had it not happened.
Today's post at my other blog is about all the lifestyle changes I've made over this past year. You can go here if you want to read about it.
My feelings today are a mixed bag. I have a bit of nausea as I remember that gut wrenching fear that was building in me. Being diagnosed with diabetes that wasn't responding was scary enough, but hearing "we'll try to save your toe" over and over was awful. I never dreamed it was anywhere that bad.
I was eventually transferred to a larger hospital and after 11 days came home without my left big toe, but with controlled blood sugar. Despair does not fathom the emotion I felt.
In the beginning diabetes felt like a death sentence. A year later, I am determined to drop the weight that will make the symptoms disappear. I'm down 17 pounds and a dress size. I'm stronger both emotionally and physically than I was then. I have a quiet resolve to live a very long time and with the upper hand.
Being diabetic launched my other blog which is quickly becoming my business. The money will come as it grows. I'm confident of its success. I'm writing a book about life with diabetes. I have the t-shirt site too. None of this would have happened without the events that started one year ago today.
I had to find something to be positive about this cross I've been given to carry or else go crazy. It's extremely easy to feel sorry for myself sometimes. Sometimes you have to feel the fear and do it anyway, as the saying goes.
I would be remiss if I did not thank each and every one of you who reads me for all your loving support through one of the very darkest times of my life. You truly kept my head above water in the beginning as I was reeling after the amputation. I am eternally indebted to you.
THANK YOU FROM THE VERY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!
CW



