Well, it's now around the two year mark since I first came to Soul Cast. I remember the first post I commented on and I will never forget it.
Do you remember the first post you commented on?
I don't know the exact date I joined, but I know it was close to around this time two years ago and I had a 3 year old. I was waiting around to comment and I was actually afraid to comment when I first joined. I thought "Comment before writing a post" back then. I was a real chicken to post, more than comment. I deleted a TON of my posts since then, because I grew so paranoid if someone from the in-laws found me. I was also having trouble revisiting all my posts on anxiety issues and every other "issue" I have and the heartache I still feel over Little D's birth defect. Sometimes, rereading posts would make me panic all over again. I had to rid myself of a ton of posts from the beginning, and I even still get rid of the recent ones if I'm having one of those days.
Anyway, the first post I commented on was written by a wonderful woman who has helped me through SO much! Most importantly, with dealing with the same situation she went through many years earlier. She could, and would, provide me with SO much information over the course of two years that I couldn't get from anywhere or anyone else...not even doctors. I hold her up on a pedestal for revisiting things that parent's, like the two of us, don't often like to even recall going through. Myself, I think of it on a daily basis still. Re-reading that post confirmed a lot to me...it's something you can't ever get over (maybe lighten up on) but you NEVER forget it!
I feel like we share a bond. I feel like her daughter is part of my life, even though I've never met her. I sent her a heart bracelet for her graduation from high school. In a way, it makes me feel like she knows she has a huge heart and a healthy one when she looks at it. I hope she thinks of Little D (I always want to call her "M's" Soul Sistah) and that they can meet someday! (Little D. is having issues with her scars lately, and more often)
The post was written on Sep 5, 2006 and by one of my Saving Graces here at Soul Cast. Secretlife, I can't ever thank you enough for writing that post and helping me through SO much and how you're always willing to answer any questions or concerns I may have, even to this day.
I hold you and your entire family so near to my heart. "Thank you" is sadly for me, the only way I can repay you. If I could repay you with the world, please know that I would.
{{{{{{<3 <3 "HEART MOMMY" HUGS <3<3}}}}}}
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