I'm waiting for your messages, so I can reject them.  I'm waiting for your calls, so I can ignore them.  After an indefinite amount of time, I plan on having a conversation with you, and telling you the truth about how all this shit REALLY made me feel.

You know, it could have been different if I had learned that he had changed his opinions of me, but he hasn't.  It WOULD have been different if he could have said sorry.