I know I'm supposed to be the adult when it comes to my kids, but right now I'd like to throw a good old fashioned fit. If you've been reading along with me you know my ex has been behaving like an ass when I go to pick up my daughter lately. He purposely takes her out for lunch, hikes, etc when he knows I'm driving in to pick her up. I've tried talking to him, but it's like talking to the wall.
I had planned to make him wait if neccesary to pick her up tomorrow until after I was off work. He usually likes to sneak in during the work day and pick her up early. Probably to avoid me. Which actually hints as some underlying intelligence on his part.
Sweetie just called me (it's about 9:30 am) to let me know her dad just called. Apparently he is in the area and would like to take her home a day early. I would love to say no. Make him make another trip tomorrow afternoon. In fact, I'd like him to show up and I'd find a way to conveniently be somewhere else so he has to wait. I asked if she wanted to go, and she said yes.
But the fact is, I'd be stooping to his level. I'd be using my child to get back at him. I'd like to allow myself to be that petty, but I know I'd feel bad if I did. As it is, I'm angry and sad about being robbed of an evening with my daughter. I feel as if I've been screwed over by my ex ........ again.
To top it all off I know that Bill will probably yell at me. We had talked about not being available when he came to pick her up. He's going to say I'm just giving in and I deserve to be screwed over if I allow it. It's like getting a zing in to the ex is more important than whether Sweetie's feelings.
I'm depressed. I'm sure I'll be better. But today I'm depressed.
