I'm only home for one more week before I go back to college. This summer has been pretty good to me I must admit. I hung out with some really good friends and had a blast doing it. I didn't meet any guys that really caught my eye...man I need to find someone. At least I'm over first guy. I think so anyway. My mother asked if I'd like to visit him since he's in town the 24th...I said no. Maybe he'll be in town when I go visit the family Labor day weekend. I don't know if I want to face this or not. He never responded to my email. God I was pathetic for a while. I'm so not crying over that anymore. I know I gave it away too quickly. Guys lose interest when they've gotten what they wanted. I messed up but I figure oh well. After three months of analyzing every moment with him I realized that I did nothing wrong. I was real. I did everything I felt I should do at the time and enjoyed every second of it. I don't regret it. He doesn't want to keep me in his life then it's his loss. I do consider myself a catch. I just need to meet a guy who won't be intimidated by me. I have opinions. I share them frequently. If you can't handle that it's a personal problem. Anyway...I have to start packing my entire life again just so I can unpack it all again. It just has to be done damnit. Other than that I'm doing okay. I'm stressed about my work load coming up this next semester. It will definitely be the toughest of my college career. I have to raise my GPA though since I'm already on scholarship suspension. Ugh. I can do it. I don't have any other choices. I have a lot to stress about right now. I don't know whether to let it stay on my mind or just roll with it. Maybe a balance between the two. I mean stress is good for everyone but at some point you just have to calm the fuck down. lol. I'm out.