Straight Out:::my biggest,most recent jealousy......as if it matter's at all.i ain't got the $$$ or other thing(s) i need to keep someone around.it should'nt matter now because they are long,long gone.But it still fucking matter's to me......that too:as if it matter's at fucking all. i feel so fucking worthless.the Nothing i fucking am.my shit don't matter b/c i don't matter.i know i'm a stupid,selfish,whiney,crybaby fucking Nothing bitch.but to have it smashed and rubbed in my fucking face AGAIN..............fuck that.yes i'm opissed.yes i'm jealous of 'those people' because they are so much more than i could ever fucking be.fuck this.made my point or not,i ain't care.cuz it does'nt fucking matter any fucking way.i'm Nothing.fucking Nothing at all.



