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Straight Out:::my biggest,most recent jealousy......as if it matter's at all.i ain't got the $$$ or other thing(s) i need to keep someone around.it should'nt matter now because they are long,long gone.But it still fucking matter's to me......that too:as if it matter's at fucking all.                           i feel so fucking worthless.the Nothing i fucking am.my shit don't matter b/c i don't matter.i know i'm a stupid,selfish,whiney,crybaby fucking Nothing bitch.but to have it smashed and rubbed in my fucking face AGAIN..............fuck that.yes i'm opissed.yes i'm jealous of 'those people' because they are so much more than i could ever fucking be.fuck this.made my point or not,i ain't care.cuz it does'nt fucking matter any fucking way.i'm Nothing.fucking Nothing at all.


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  • phoeby said on Aug 01, 2008....
    hi sweetheart... ((hugs)) i know you've probably heard this heaps of times before from people on here so i apologise if i'm repeating what you've heard already. But you gotta start being on you're own side chick. i've read so many posts of you'res where you're literally beating yourself up for things. Making yourself feel even worse.

    Think of yourself as a little child or an animal. would you say those things to them? if not, stop beating yourself up and start trying to see some good things about yourself and what you do each day. there are plenty of people out there who are willing to criticise each of us. we don't need to do it to ourselves as well. yanno?

    maybe try to look for the good in you. it's there if you look hard enough. you'll start to feel slightly better if you learn to do that. 

    anyway, look after you ok?

    love phoeby
  • Mamie said on Aug 01, 2008....
    i agree, stop the negative self talk and the silence you finally hear will hold some acceptance. You will miss these people whom you miss for a mightly long time, you cannot change that it takes time.
    But you can stop being a bully to yourslef killie...there is plenty of anxiety and hatred in the world before we even step foot out the door, at least let yourself have some peace inside your own home. blessed be girlfriend!
  • CayenneMan said on Aug 02, 2008....

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