feel i have neglected you all but my feet havent touched the ground lately,been so busy with work and that i havent had time to do anything !!!

 

ok,so im still smoking ....... dot on the cards really

 

feeling really rubbish today,like im on some kinda come down,i duno, just one of them days when u think everyone hates you and u hate everyone.

wanna run away n hide sorta thing

 

thing is...... every now n again i get really upset cos of one particular thing that went on,is sort of still goin on in my life .... here we go n feel the tears coming already lol

well i dont wanna cry today so i will save the explanation for another time but the story goes summat like.... i fell in love with someone i never thought i would,maybe someone i shouldnt i duno and life bein the way it is means that we could be together but it would be hard,well i wouldnt care how hard it was etc but they would....you with me? its a long story

 

so thats in my head today,think its where i been so busy i not thought about anything really and now i have stopped everything is crashing back down on me and its all too much

 

see,im thinking again...told u it was bad idea

 

so today,as i am at home,i think i will go back to bed and stay there all day,fone off

wanna be left alone

cos when i feel like this i wanna be on my own,dont wanna bring people down with me u know,not fair to make them miserable too

 

sorry for my depressing blog !!!!

 

im sure the next one will make u smile

 

lolly

xxx