Today I am doing very little, not because im down and depressed or cant find anything constructive to do.I think I need a day to reflect.

Ive had a traumatic time in rescent months and its unsettled my world.But im stronger now ,ive been strong since day 3, but now I am fit and well.I still bare the emotional scars that only my psychologist and I are aware of.So im rebuilding my life in front of my family and trying to understand where things went wrong inside me.I can still move forward but its with uncertainty until I find closure, and a clearer understanding on why my emotions broke down.This is very important to me and I can't ignore it.But I have a terrible feeling inside that I wont find closure , just more questions.or worse still it will lead me back to sqaure 1

I mean I know what the outside causes where, and I am certain I responded in the most practical, fair and logical ways I could.But despite my strength there was no happy ending.Or was there?........................