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Ok - so I said that I was going to posting something a little different.Well,I know that there are a number of us in this community that have been through a lot of dark days in our lives.so,I was wondering - what was it about that particular experience that changed you.Whether it made you a little bit more weary of the people around you,or whether it made you wonder whether you can actually trust the people that you are with.Albeit a partner,a colleague - or your own children
I firmly believe that any relationship is built on trust and honesty.
If you are involved with someone,whether it has been a for a short time,or a long time - what criteria or qualities is that relationship based on?
Do you trust the other person - in spite of a previous experience you may have had,where you trusted too much and were let down as a result.If something untoward had to happen between your other half and say,a third party - would you be able to trust your partner to be honest enough with you to come and tell you what had happened.Or do you think that they would possibly carry on with the illicit goings on,hoping you dont catch up ?
For me personally,trust and honesty go hand in hand - in my mind - you cant have one with out the other - forget the good looks and the fantastic mind blowing sexual encounters- they fade eventually.Forget the large bank account,and the fancy house and fancy cars - those are all material things.They dont count for anything.
So does anyone else agree with the above.If so,why?
Or have you been through any experiences that have made you question who you are,what you stand for - and where your life is headed...................is that little house inside your head in order? 


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  • wishyouwerehere said on Jul 30, 2008....
    There is a quote from Buddha that helps me remember the value of my darker moments: "It is because of the mud that the lotus can bloom."
     
    Trust is hard to build, and easily broken.  When I first realized my partner had a tendency to run when the going got rough, I thought it would improve with time.  Instead, it emerged as a consistent pattern.  Knowing you can only change yourself, I ultimately chose to leave.  I think the experience has given me more insight in a lot of regards, but it has also made me fearful of commitment.  I loved my ex-husband beyond intellect and reason.  I still love him, even though I no longer have the desire to maintain a close relationship.  I cannot imagine loving anyone else with that intensity or lack of hesitation.  In my current relationship, there is a lot of space, partly because of geography, but mostly because each of us fears dependency and the sacrfices seem too large.
     
    I wholeheartedly agree that material possessions are not a source of true happiness.  I left a lot behind to get to where I am right now, and I wouldn't change it for the world.  Sometimes, a fancy house can be a prison.  It's great to be free.
     
    Wonderful post, CJ - can't wait to read everyone else's comments - Wishy
     
     
  • pusscat said on Jul 30, 2008....
    The little house inside my head is far from in order - to be frank, it looks like a bomb has hit LOL!
     
    I trusted my husband and he trusted me when we both said our vows.  Most of the time since it really has been 'for poorer', 'in sickness' and this past year 'for worse'.  I know he loved me for who I was but, as I grew and changed, he found that hard to accept.  As a recently discovered submissive (12 months ago precisely), i really thought he was trying to understand me.  He even attempted to be my Dominant.  During times when he has feeling low, many hurtful words have been thrown at me, the most hurtful being "I want a normal life with a normal wife".  Am I not normal?  Of course I am.  Have I had a personality transplant?  No.  Am I still the same caring, selfless person I have always been?  You bet your butt I am! 
     
    I no longer trust him to be honest with me about his feelings on dominance and submission.  I feel like he is saying all the right words to ensure 'he keeps me'?  He knows that, as a submissive, i can not live the way I was before.  The yearning and need is too great for me to sweep it all under the carpet.  A life for me now without true submission would be a very dark, cold life.  I knpow it may be hard for many of you to understand what it means to be a submissive and the life that entails, but it not something I 'play at'.  It is not an activity to spice my life up - it is what I am.  It does not even revolve around sexual activities as many people of bondage, whips and chains when they hear of dominance adn submission LOL!  It is a mind set that can not be altered.
     
    I am not sure that I can ever trust him to be honest with me since those hurtful out pourings as his fear of losing me is so great that i believe he is willing to say anything to  keep me but this lifestyle can only work on honesty.  Nothing less than 100% will work. 
     
    pusscat
  • secretlife said on Jul 30, 2008....
    we can try to keep the little house in our head in order cuppa-  but we can never know or control the things that happen TO us.....only how we react to them....and no matter how much you prepare yourself, you just never know til you walk in someone else's shoes how you'll react yourself.
     
     
  • lionesss said on Jul 31, 2008....
    My best friend pusscat is my soulmate and i trust her with my life, that came into practise 2005 when i suffere multi fits for 8hrs i had to be incubated and while asleep decision had to be made non of my family were around to make them, so pusscat had the job to make them, she had my life in her hands, well i eventually woke up  knowing nothing of what she had been through "but i did notice she had no nails",,
    i will never forget the look on her face when i did wake up, ERRRRRdoes she know its me or not???? wow that look emotions i cant explain, i cant imagine what a rollacoaster ride that must of been for her, waiting for me to wake up waiting for my kids to call her i just cant imagine it at all,,,
     
     
    all i can say is thank you pusscat i owe you my life xxxxxxxx
  • pusscat said on Aug 01, 2008....
    The thing is my dear lioness, you have no idea how many times I owe my life to you!
     
    The tiny little card I found in an envelope one day when I got home from work, measuring a mere 3" x 5" - 'Don't Quit'.  You'll never know how close I came. . . then I recieved that :-)
     
    The 'Worlds Best Mate Award' just the other day. . . .the txts I receive on a regular basis. . .
     
    THANK YOU

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