husbandhater posted this question on her blog:  "What would your personal theme song be?"  While I'm not a huge American Idol fan, I chose "This Is My Now" by Jordin Sparks for several reasons:

My life is changing in so many ways - inside and out.  On the outside, my feminine shape is beginning to shine as I've lost almost 30 lbs.  I feel sexy, I have more energy, and I'm excited about my success.  Mentally, I am learning to control my habits, my selfishness, my self-doubt and self-loathing.  I'm also learning to be a better, more submissive, more attentive wife.  When I look in the mirror, I am beginning to like what I see.  I am growing and getting better with every passing day.  And this is just the beginning. 

"This Is My Now" Lyrics:

There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.
There was a time when I was so afraid
I thought I'd reached the end.
Baby, that was then.
But I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.


I had to decide.
Was I gonna play it safe?
Or look somewhere deep inside,
Try to turn the tide.
Find the strength to take that step of faith?

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.

I have a courage like never before, yeah.
I settled for less, but I'm ready for more.
Ready for more...

This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now,
And I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around,
I can't believe the love I see.
My fear's behind me,
Gone are the shadows and doubt.
That was then.
This is my now.
This is my now.