i am reading blogs and i am feeling devastated and a little better. devastated because there are so many people with so many problems and with way worse situations to deal with than me...my heart is breaking. and a little better because for the first time i don't feel so alone. i hope choosing this site to start my blog was the right thing to do. it was the name that got me. soulcast. isn't that what we all want? to open our souls and not feel judged or stupid or wrong. there is no way i could tell anyone how i'm feeling. but this way i feel anonymous and if you saw me on the street you wouldn't know it was me and i could put on aires and i could pretend for one more moment that i am ok