Hi, this is my very first blog on SoulCast, hello world!

It's currently 1.28 AM and for the second night this week I can't sleep, all I can do is think of him and worry. So I thought I'd try a bit of blogging! Why would choose to read about the love life of a twenty year old girl is beyond me, but I need to get things off my chest.

I've known him for years through his brothers and one of my ex-boyfriends was once his flatmate, but in January this year things changed a little. I was still with my current boyfriend but I felt a spark with each word sent electronically through Messenger (how romantic...) he was off in Russia and then the U.S for work training, which meant harmless flirtations over the internet were no threat to my previous relationship.

Until it broke down and I couldn't wait for him to come home. I hardly knew him. Not in real life anyway. But we met up at the beginning of last month during a music festival, I slept over at his tent both nights, the sex was amazing.

I'd never had the pleasure of GREAT sex before.

The following week we met up once before I jetted off with friends for a girl's holiday in the sun, but couldn't wait to get back for another piece with him. Two weeks on after one official date he asked me to be his proper girlfriend, I said yes.

I wasn't sure though, although I liked him and the sex was great I had decided that I was determined to stay single for as long as I could after my last break-up, but I gave it a go.

Heres where the worry comes in.

This Sunday is our one month anniversary (woop haha) and I'm falling quicker than I ever have done before, every time we meet I leave a little bit more smitten. I can honestly say I'm falling head over heels for this guy, is this too quick?

I'm terrified of having my heart broken, which was made worse by the story of how he and his ex-girlfriend parted ways (the poor girl slept on his sofa crying all night after traveling miles to see him!) it sounds bad, but he didn't love her anymore, better out than in I suppose.

I don't want to be that girl.

The one reason I decided to stay single for as long as I could is that after my last relationship (which was very rocky at times) I can't stand to watch as a wonderful beginning turns into a horrible end, or even worse ending up heartbroken.

I know I'm only twenty but I've had two crap relationships, two heartbreaks and one where the love just vanished. I'd rather be single than have any of that again before the age of 30.

But seriously, how do you stop yourself falling so quickly? Answers on the back of a postcard.