I know that I said in a previous post that i would continue the last part of the day of the accident,but I somehow don't feel up to it right now.I am not quite sure why.I have a wide range of emotions going through my head right now.
Some want to relive the past and others..................well,lets just leave the other where they are for now,shall we? It seems a little easier to just sweep them under the carpet,and pretend that they are not there.where did they come from? - No one knows.
Do they come from the dark side that lies within all of us.
How many of us remember the seven deadly sins...........
seven deadly sins
seven ways to win
seven holy paths to hell
and your trip begins
seven downward strokes
seven bloodied hopes
seven are your burning fires
seven - your desires................
I am sorry this sounds really screwed up - but like I said,I have all kinds of shit (sorry) going through my head right now
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cuppajava posted on Jul 22, 2008
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secretlife said on Jul 22, 2008....
the time has to be right, and you have to be ready to dredge up bad memories-you'll do it when you're ready.....so don't beat yourself up over it, ok??? -
pusscat said on Jul 23, 2008....
Never apologise my friend for what is in your head.
Those dark thoughts will come out one by one, bit by bit, like secret said, when you are ready. The human brain is an amazing work of art. It knows when we can cope and when we can't. It knows just what doses we can work with and when we are ready to up that dose.
You know where all your friends are if ever you should need them
puss x
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cuppajava said on Jul 23, 2008....
Secret' - thank you very much for the advice - those thoughts have been buried pretty deep up til now.I think I need to get them out and let them go,cos if I dont I know its not gonna do me any good.
PC - I dont know if I am apologiseing for what is in my head,maybe for the less than straight forward way that I am trying to get them out ,yes - but we shall see.As I have said above - I think its about time I try and get rid of these thoughts,so that I can carry on with life's merry journey with out having to look over my shoulder - for that angel,who has gotten into the habit of following me around every where I go,and then when I go to bed at night,my subconscious mind seems to give me lecture about all the things that I wasnt supposed to do but did.I want the angel to stay - but i need to sort the subconcious thing out - and fast....
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Ownedgalbabs said on Jul 23, 2008....
CJ:
Take your time. This is not an easy task to undertake. It's not uncommon to feel the way as you do. There is no time limit. Its like grief in itself. Everyone does it differently. Its as unique as the nature of the loss itself.
For grief is something as individual as it is experienced when we grieve for our parents or a sibling, to that of our friends and even our pets. Losing a spouse brings with it an immediate life altering experience. Where as in all other times of loss you once had each other to lean on, this type forces us to face life as one,again and is by far one of the hardest things to ever come to terms with in life.
You are in my thoughts,
Be gentle on yourself,
babs
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skald said on Jul 23, 2008....
Does not sound screwed up to me. Sounds good. I hope to hear more about the accident soon. I really don't know what this is all about. Sorry. I have missed out.