I've been out. I am taking a rigorous leadership program that started last may. and will end November. I don't know if it's working on me or not, I just know that I'm more confused now than ever. I wanted all the promised benefits. I want to expand myself, discover new possibilities and forgotten goals that has been with me all along. I want a change of lifestyle and I want it now. I want to be really occupied and busy and full of things to do and just keep on adding some more and still have space for more. but without the stress and pressure that comes along with sucess. Life's simpler now. just looking back from last year, I have less drama and episodes. I can now differentiate, what really happened and the conclusions or interpretation that I have drawn from it that causes my stress or hurt feelings. That's one great benefit though. Everytime I feel bad, or angry or irritated - I can sort out my feelings right away, where it is coming from , can I give up that view, do I want to stay angry or sad? Life everyday, every moment is now a choice. I'm no longer sentimental and onion skinned who took everything personally. And It's great to be a person who deals with life this way. no drama, no issues. Just what happened, what can be done, how will things work out. No heavy feelings about anyone, no excessive tiredness or stress No future too great to accomplish, no past in the way of getting there. It's simple, but intricate in a way that they are all related. And that everything that ever happened, what everyone have done, my present situation, bad or good circumstances - there's always my participation somewhere. it's either - it's my interpretation that make things the way they are or it's what I did not take on that allowed for things to go that way. whatever happened here - in my life- I'm taking full responsibility. Life is great and powerful when I don't blame it to someone else. I'm never gonna be a victim anymore. whiny, self centered, incapable.