After a tireing weekend of moving I think things have become a little better.  Most of the week had been very ackward, then my momma had a chat with my sister in law while my brother was at work.  She was really nice and both of them were more open then usual with each other, it really helped clear the air and things seemed more normal.  It was quite a relief, sometimes momma's just know how to fix stuff I swear.  What I find a bit disturbing is that even knowing my brother has a girlfriend right now, she said she'd still consider taking him back.  However, we all seemed to agree that we don't know how good of a person this girlfriend of my brothers is since he's technically still married, course that's his fault too.     

      In the mean time I had decided I'd go for Las Vegas and I started to send in the forms and things to enable me to sign up for classes.  I finally got it set up and started to figure out what classes I'd need and hopefully what they'd give me credit for.  I still don't know how my classes will transfer.  I'm not sure how to go about that since I'm not in Las Vegas yet and I doubt advisors do that stuff over the phone.  At least I was able to get into some classes that I need, but unfortunetly the more important ones are full, so with some luck maybe someone will drop and I can get in.   

     Well on Friday my mom got my sister in law and brother to pay off a lot of their credit cards.  The past few months they haven't paid a lot of things and ran up their cards on lots of things, so it's kind of bad.  At least it's a little better now.  Then later that day my brother, sister in law and I went to see Batman.  We headed out a little late for the show we wanted so we went to eat and a had good time.  I was noticeing how my sister in law was taking a more friends roll with my brother, and yet she'd subtley flirt too it seemed.  It's very smart I must say.  Then we went to the theater and they were sold out till the 11pm showing.  The ticket guy insisted that it was worth staying up for and so we got tickets.  However, my brother was tired because he had stayed out the night before partying and had to get up early to start moving the next day.  My sister in law was set on seeing it and told him he could go if he wanted.  So we were driving back to drop him off, when she started saying she was really sad he wouldn't go see it.  They had a fight about it all and eventually she just agreed he should go to sleep and she was fine with it.  This type of fighting happened all the time with them and well I'd like to think I'm trying to pick out how not to be if I'm ever in a relationship.

      The movie was really good though and worth staying up for.  The next day everyone was up early, but me.   They were making lots of noise so I eventually got up.  They had the truck there already and were decideing on what to move first.  Everyone seemed in a good mood though, even my sister in law.  My brothers friend came over to help with the heavy stuff, which would have been my job if he didn't come over, so I was happy about that.  Unfortunetly we had to make two trips with the truck and it really tired us out, so everyone was kind of cranky when stuff was finally moved in.  In my head I had pictured everybody being kind of sad and solemn when moving, but it was just the opposite most the time.  Then we got some food and my sister in law got a few last things she needed and then my brother and I went to her apartment to help set stuff up.  That eventually led to my brother putting together a desk while my sister in law and I ate stuff and we watched movies.  It was fun and everything seemed kind of normal.  We spent the night there too, just because there wasn't much furniture left in the house now. 

       This morning my sister in law seemed happy and so did my brother.  She had her family coming to help her unpack, so I was glad she wouldn't be by herself yet.  I find it all very strange how everyone is handleing this.  My brother and mom seem happy, and that makes me feel good.  I think my sister in law is happy, but she could just be trying to hide how she really feels, but she was saying she really likes her new place.  Although she was asking my brother if they'd study together at school and that he can come over if he needs to any time.  I hope she'll be alright. 

     After my brother and I got home, we started putting some stuff up so that the house wasn't so empty.  My mom and brother started laying it on how I should stay here again.  I'm freaking out a little just because maybe they're right.  Weirdly enough things seem to be heading in the right direction, and something tells me Las Vegas might be good, but I'm also scared I'm just running away again.  I guess what also concerns me is money, since it be way cheaper to live here and go to school again.  Where I'll live down there is still up in the air and that makes me think I should stay too, but I did only just start working on going to Vegas.  I am glad that my thoughts that my mean bad friend were influencing me aren't as bad as I figured.  For some reason I think I'd go there even if he didn't live kind of close and I'm relieved that I've figured that part out at least. 

      All this mess on seeing how relationships change and diminish is freaking me out too.  How guys and girls behave is sometimes really terrible and it makes me think most any guy is like my brother right now, or most any girl would take back such a guy.  It makes me sad thinking about my mean bad friend too, because I thought we were kind of making some progress and yet it could all just be games like my brother seems to like to play right now.  It makes me sick, why do people have to hurt each other like that and does any relationship really last and remain worth it?  I always thought love could fix most anything, now I almost just want to avoid it.  This is way longer then I had in mind, but it feels good to let out my thoughts right now, so there you have it.