Hi guys,
I have been doing my best to keep my chin up and do a few things toward some sort of better day ahead. I signed up for unemployment, but will be looking for a job--as per instructed (men in suits telling me what to do--I hate control!) but also will be looking for real so I can tell them to kiss my tootie.
Who knows if I will find a job soon or will be just doing paperwork and drawing a tiny check for many weeks. That's up in the air right now. The gravy will be thin, but we will be able to manage and still have some meat to put under it for now. Two good incomes are better than one, of course. I shudder to think what some of those people may be going through that got the ax in the back along with me. In some ways I am lucky.
That doesn't take into account the depression that follows a blow like that. I had been doing so well.....no severe depression, felt like I had found a place in this world, and was even quite proud of the work I was doing on most days.
But they took it away......
As I was trying to stay occupied in the last two or three days (reading, sketching, thinking, and too much sleeping....) I was hanging in there. One thing that helped was my connection to the world. (You)
Then I lost that, too. Apparently hubby had run over some wires with the lawn mower (that shouldn't have been left as they were by the ground in a coil of excess) and there went our tv/internet connection.
Oh, this is good. I went to bed early last night and had too much time to think. For some reason, we had tv in that room, but only on the upper channels---and those were fuzzy and a bit staticky.
Like my life right now.
But anyway.....hello and I hope I will have a better week next week. I printed out a few copies of flyers that I have for an idea for money on the side, looked at my writing I have started, and planned out a budget for personal spending. That part really sucks scissors!
Until then, I guess I will be around here and there, but I can't gaurantee what my mood will be on any given day and any given minute. I know----been there and done this just a few months ago.
So--wombie is on the highwire carrying her dreams in a cauldron of hope-----
But at least I have my "net" back......
Love, wombie
